This Climb Is Draining The Life Out Of Me

By Jove! School is an absolute drag.

It's not that boredom levels have reached Def-con 5 level yet but thinking of the inexorable rise towards that over the coming weeks is already putting a damper to my spirits.

Jumping grandma on a stick! I'm left floundering and am in the midst of flailing in desparation, left in wonderment as to how exactly I'm going to find motivation to achieve this term,let alone this semester.

On a positive note,I finally saw the rankings for the 2nd year students in my course.I was number 29 previously.

I'm now number 19.Number 4 in my class.

Right on..I've achieved my hope of breaking into the top 20.

Roswell Girl's at the lofty position of number 7.Damn girl, that is totally RAD !

Adequately pleased for me.Way stoked for both of us....

Not Much Room For Shenanigans

Right.I'm so bored it's reaching ridiculous proportions.

It's not the level of boredom but rather,it's realising that I have nothing to look forward to.

I wanna have fun at the new megamall but there's no one to bring along.Incredibly pathetic if I was to turn up there alone.

Then,by my calculations,the next term holiday is at 15 December or thereabouts.That's about 2 months counting back from the start of this term.2 weeks down,6 weeks left.

6 weeks of school.With not much to offer on the side,in terms of leisure events.A holiday,an outing,a special day of fun.These things help me survive the drudgery of school life.Not to mention,I'm already lagging behind in this aspect.

You couple all that with the ambiguity of the current Roswell Girl situation,it makes for a disagreeable weekened break.

Taking it week by week,I have to find motivation for this one.I find none.That's what I need things to look forward to,things to be happy about.Sounds incredibly shallow but perhaps an outing would perk me up.Some occasional retail therapy wouldn't hurt.

I'd ask Wahida cos you know she's a friend and all.Or Roswell Girl cos she's well..y'all know that one already.But I'm worried they may find me insanely,boringly creepy and not want to go.

.My mates..one's occupied with the retaking of O Level exams and the other is doing battle with his own demons in poly.

Anyone interested in going to VivoCity with me? Or to Topman to get that jacket?

Right..this blows...I'm out.

Strike Them Out

Dead tired.Just got back from Kevin's party in the park.Walked all the way back to my mate's neighbourhood before taking a cab ride home.

I bought some stuff earlier.Yess,this means that I've canceled some stuff off in my wishlist.I had originally planned to buy the Hugo Boss colonge that had a citrus-sy smell.But I was goaded into buying a Mont Blanc bottle.It smelt nicer anyway.It comes off a little strong at first but it has this really nice after-smell.Worth the extra 30 plus bucks.

Also bought Justin Timberlake's latest CD but I'm way too washed out to give it a listen.

Like I said,I walked all the way to the next town to my mate's house.I had met him at the mall to get the colonge and the CD and had put it at his house before heading for the party cos I didn't want to bring it there.After that,we both didn't feel like heading home just yet so we decided to take a really long walk to his house.Chatted about the usual stuff,girls and the like.Took about 20 minutes through quiet,isolated streets.Got my stuff back from his house,took a cab home.

Reached home,zonked out and here we are.Gonna crash pretty soon.

Bored Stupid

Egad! Is this holdiay afternoon a drag or what?

Wanted to spend the day out,window shopping and just chilling at VivoCity but apparently not a good time for my mates.I would ask my ITE people that I know if they wanted to hang out but I'm not so sure I would get a positive response.

What's that? Ask Roswell Girl you say?

Again,I would but even a regular attempt by me to avoid boredom may be misconstrued as yours truly trying to 'get' her.Something I do not want her assuming.Treading on unncertain waters.I don't believe there's anything dangerous in these waters but perhaps a heavy fog has set in and it is advisable to not chart a course for anywhere in particular just yet.

IS THERE NO ONE ELSE! IS THERE NO ONE ELSE! Lol..Brad Pitt in Troy anyone?

See? That's how bored I am..it's got me spewing off movie quotes.I've been busy with production and school and have had no time to check out VivoCity.There's also a double agenda.I plan to strike off things in my wish list.

So my mates better come good soon,here's hoping.Or does anyone else fancy a trip down to VivoCity?

Meanwhile,I shall be rotting my mind away with DVDs at home.Had to make changes to the SGEM song as well.If anything interesting occurs later on in the night,I may update.

On A Need To Know Basis

The performance was this morning.Went along well enough.Nice part was when I went down on one knee to act out the queen and the serf scene.Chalk one up for dramatics.

Have very good news to report.I received one of my two scholarships today.Perhaps due to my family's combined level of income,the awarding trustees saw it fitting that I only be awarded half of the stated $1200.But honestly,$600 is a tidy sum anyway.No intention of bragging but rather,I'm just reporting a significant happening in my daily life so please do not misinterpret my intent.

Definitely,the good news is I'll probably get the Hugo Boss colonge and the jacket as well as the shoes.The last one courtesy of my mom.

This thing with Roswell Girl has really got me thinking,too much for my own good.I guess I'm really uncomfortable with the fact that things have been left hanging,like I previously mentioned. Interaction between us have been 'normal'.If I may make an attempt to pinpoint the problem,it may lie in the fact that I don't know how she feels about the letter that I sent her,the one that was a reply,if you will,to the one that she gave to me on my birthday.

I've been toying with the idea of SMS-ing her but somehow,something is holding me back.Am I afraid about she might have to say? Maybe...

But truth be told,the diagnosis may be a case of acute paranoia here.It may be that I'm just overthinking things.I tend to do that sometimes.

But still,there is this fear that I have that while it may be smooth on the surface,there may be feelings and/or thoughts she is hiding.This sort of dishonesty lays the groundwork for,on her part,distrust and rather unfortunately for me,distance.

However,she did write the letter.That in itself an act of openess.

I fear that she may be uncomfortable with something I wrote in my letter but she has chosen to keep mum about it.I hope not.

Better get this issues resolved before I turn into a babbling,discombobulated wreck.

Views Exchanged But Do Other Doubts Remain?

So spent a bit of the money received from house-visits yesterday but I've yet to receive from my dad and mom so that's something to look forward too.

Today there was a surprise lying in wait for me after rehearsals.A festive party suddenly turned to a birthday celebration.Mine to be exact.I have to admit total bewilderment here.It was unexpected.But definitely pleasant.

There was a cake.There was a card.Signed by everyone.Far out! Indeed...never had people fuss about me like this before.It's an astoundingly touching collective gesture for which I am more than thankful for.

May load one or two photos if they ever get round to me.

During the celebration,the Section Head (who was invited to the feast) mentioned to me that the college principal whom I interviewed,was left imprinted with a good impression of me and how eloquently I spoke.At the risk of sounding brash,I have to say I feel a sense of nonchalance towards that remark.Don't get me wrong,I fully grasp the weight behind the remark, considering the source but I also feel that I should just take it on the surface and not read too much into it.Way I see it,I'm just doing my thing.

Also my CCA teacher remarked that she liked my blog and how I write in it.Taken aback as she did mention that she probably wouldn't have time to read blogs when she first found out about mine and a few others(I did post about this in a previous post).Apparently she did,though only for a bit ever since that day.Again,this a totally rad thing to hear.

Right,am I blowing my own horn or what? Totally mired in a sea of self-indulgence here.

Performance tomorrow,hopefully things go well.Although the point that I would like to stress here is that I'll miss another Principles of Marketing class.

Scheisse...

Attended my first class today,a week and a half into it.Looks do-able but I'll have to work and mug my way through.A reminder that I am aiming to get an A for this module.

Suddenly reminded of 2 movies.Baz Luhrmann's Romeo and Juliet and the movie adaptation of the Nicholas Sparks novel 'A Walk To Remember'.Feel like watching them.Especially the former.I know I did before.I'd just like to experience watching the tragic grandeur of it all.Timeless tale juxtaposed against the chaos that is modern society.

Oh,now I remember.After watching the Godfather trilogy,in which Al Pacino was brilliant,I must remind myself to go and grab 'Scarface' as well.This is where Pacino is decidedly more hands-on.Organised crime glorified.This is where his character Tony Montana utters the infamous phrase 'Say hello to my little friend!'

Lol.

On the Roswell Girl front,she has said that she received the letter.But that's all and nothing more.It's all out in the open but we haven't thrashed out an honest discussion about it.Heeding the advice of some humans of the female variety,I shall either call her or do it through the use of SMS..wanted to do it tonight but it's too late in the night I think.Will do it sometime soon,unless of course I see a window of opportunity that I can seize.

Things aren't weird between me and her.It's just that,after all this exchange,it's sort of been left hanging and I guess that what I'm looking for is some sort of 'closure'.

Hopefully I'll get it without jeopardizing the 'progres' that we've made in our situation.I'll have to tread carefully here.Last thing I want is for her to freak out and back away.

'Blogthings'..erm..things.

Here's a couple of 'Blogthings' I always thought of posting up but never got around to it.

Your Birthdate: October 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress. Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities Your power color: Crimson red Your power symbol: Snowflake Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

And these 2 I like....

You Should Drive a BMW

Refined and classy, you want a car that looks rich... and goes fast!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

You Belong in Milan

Stylish and sophisticated, you want to enjoy a truly European life - away from tourists!Milan fits you perfectly. Great shopping, high quality food, lots of culture... with very little hype.

What European City Do You Belong In?

Look at me,I'm in the ouskirts of Milan,driving to the city in my classy BMW..maybe with my supa-fly chick riding shotgun? This last part would be integral to the who experience

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's" Your Love Style?

OooWie...I like that..

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view.A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

How..apt.

And a note to Sunny.You're cramping into my area boy,IT'S MY ZONE...get back to yours.Vamoose,man.Lmfao.

Oh P/s - I remembered seeing a pic of Roswell Girl in traditional wear,complete with 'headgear'.Even when covered up she looks cute.Dang,yeah,I can't get enough of how cute she looks.She looks a tad different in traditional wear as compared to the normal clothes she usually wears but the cuteness factor remains.

And to that I say...

Huzzah!

Money Plans Part 2: Plans For The Money

I kind of forgot.Since it's the festive day and all.I will be getting some cash influx and perhaps I should take that into consideration.

I just went to the mall just now and I saw the Hugo Boss colonge which cost $97 I think.If I add it all up that's about close to $300,if I add the shoes and the jacket.

Okay,okay.If I had an accountant he/she would be wagging a finger of disapproval.I have no idea how,besides the scholarship,I'm gonna get the money for all that.I've learned not to harp on that damn thing it's bloody pointless.It'll probably come when I'll least expect it,like all good things.

Hmm..wonder how much I'll get...I expect maybe $100.Right on,I'll be able to cancel off something from my wish list.Either of the 3 abovementioned expensive items.Maybe when I get my usual monthly allowance I'll be able to get that Batman belt and that new Justin Timberlake CD..

Oh and that Batman belt..it's not the utility belt like the one Batman has.It's just a normal belt with the a silver Batman logo on the buckle.Cool,in a child-like manner.The kid in me I guess.

I've got the list and beware..I have a pencil,ok right fine,a virtual pencil on hand.

Muahaha..beware...

Money Plans

One day of fasting left.The last day.

Tomorrow is the festive day.Looking ambivalently towards it.That means that while I know that there will be some nice moments of fun and a littlebit of cash influx as well,I still feel rather tired thinking about all the vistiting I'm gonna have to do.A tiring day of walking around from place to place before reaching home late at night,with school to think about the next day.

Looks like mom said I'm gonna have to find a way to get that jacket on my own.Dang.But maybe I still can ask her to get the shoes for me.I'll have to find a way how.

Really want to get a job but I know myself.I know that if I do now,I'll struggle.I know there are loads of people who work and study at the same time but like I said,I know myself and I know that it would be detrimental to my time and ultimately my studies.

My mom's just not giving me enough.I need at least another exra $100 per month.It sounds incredulously materialistic but it is the sad truth.It's not her fault though.I can solve this problem by getting a job but the repercussions I have stated above.

My CCA teacher's getting me to gp to this seminar of sorts with the college principal,along with my CCA chairman.Just us two to represent our CCA.Usually I would jump at the chance to skip class but even this is a bit much for me.The semester is barely in its infancy and I've already missed so many classes.I just don't know how many more I can afford to miss.

Will have to talk to my teacher after this.I have rehearsals to go to in about half an hour.I'm in school,by the way,just made the trip from home,to come a bit earlier and just chill,blogging and stuff.

Rehearsals finish around 2-ish.I don'y know what I'll do after that.Got loads of time to kill.

Straggling Not Slacking

2 days of fasting left.Today and tomorrow.

I'm supposed to be schooling but it's a half-day for Muslim students.It starts at 12.But since MY lessons start at 12,I don't have to attend.Although I do have rehearals from 12 to 2 pm still.Then, Tuesday a public holiday,will spend that day in the festivities.I'll go back to school on Wednesday and continue with Thursday before Friday being a holiday,brought forward from another previous public holiday.So this coming week will only have 2 days of school.

Cause to celebrate perhaps.But that would also mean that I would miss more lessons,which I'm not too keen about.I mean there's only so much I can miss before I start to struggle to catch up,no matter how much other people say it would be for someone like me to catch up.

I beg to differ.

Last semester was the one with the big push and with that achieved,this semester will be me looking to consolidate that good position with steady grades.I have to push myself albeit with different motives.I still have to push myself to get the right mindset nontheless.

Will be going out later to get the new traditional clothes.I hope I need not spend too much time there.I hope I'll just get what's neccessary and leave.I plan to reach home around 730pm.

That is in light of the big game on the tube tonight.

United will be hosting the Red Scouse tonight.While Manchester United are touted as favourites,I remain wary.I have a feeling it will be a draw but at the same time,perhaps confusingly,I expect United to get away with a 1-0 or 2-0 win.But such is the nature of this fixture and the way it is being set up I wouldn't be surprised if we end up losing.

I wonder how receptive my mom is to the idea of me geeting that Topman jacket or that pair of Adidas Originals shoes.$96 and $109 respectively.I don't think I'll manage to get both around the same time.Unless my mom's exceptionally generous or if she gets either as a birthday present and I get the other with my scholarship.

There are a couple of plays that I may be catching sometime soon.It's either 'Puteri Gunung Ledang'(PGL),'Phantom of the Opera' or 'Notre Dame Du Paris'.1st up is the PGL play and it would be a nice thought,'debuting' my jacket and shoes there.

Had a talk from one of the polytechnics last Friday.The top 75 students in the course had to attend.It was one of those polys that I wasn't interested in attending cos the location is so far,far away,the daily commute to school would be such a killer.I'm not sure if there were any absentees but a total of 8 people from my class attended.To my knowledge,3 people have lower GPAs than me.Does that mean I'm No. 5 in my class? It would be nice if I was.That was a small aim,interrelated to my goal of raising my GPA.

Don't think I'm going to get a Certificate of Merit(COM).That's reserved for the top of the top in the list.Roswell Girl might get it,she should in my opinion anyway.She deserves it.It's okay though,the COM was just something high for me to aim at.Even if I fall short of it,I still land quite high up.

The outlook is pretty positive but this recent run of 'playing truant'(legally) is rather worrying.It's worrying that I'm missing so many classes.

She Did What...Woah, That Is Da Bomb!

So much has happened since the last post.Maybe not in terms of quantity but definitely in terms of impact.

The on-location shooting these past 3 days have been a real eye opener.It offers an insight into how a real life production team works.It was tiring and boring but I learned a lot of things.

My job as a scriptwriter cum interviewer is basically done,save for maybe a few rewritings of the script but only if neccessary.I missed 3 days of class though and that leaves me a little behind in some modules but I'll catch up.I hope.

Tuesday was especially tiring with the call sheet stating that shooting begins at 730am and ends at 730pm.We managed to wrap up for the day at around 640pm but it wasn't much consolation.I had to eat dinner at Burger King and trudge my way back home via public transport.We had to visit 5 campuses and do shots.Loads of them.It was mostly up to the directors so I did much sitting down and waiting.I tried to make myself useful by carrying the stuff sometimes and giving assistance whenever neccessary.

I even had to interview the college principal,who's in charge of the 5 schools.It was pretty scary but I put my nerves down and got through it.

2nd and 3rd day weren't so taxing but it was pretty hard work as well.

Overall,it was a very nice experience that was a rare chance in ITE and I was glad to be part of it.Video launch is on the 15th of November so more as the date comes closer.

The 2nd day of shooting was my birthday.Before it began in the morning, a group of my classmates came over to sing happy birthday very loudly..wow,I was embarrassed but I rolled with it and took a bow at the end.So touched.Lol.

After shooting I had rehearsals for the skit going to be performed on the 26th October.It's a rehashed skit so it's not that difficult.

I met Roswell Girl during and she gave me a card(more on the contents later).A lot of well wishers,a couple of Friendster testimonials.It was nice.I went to eat dinner at McDs and before that Roswell Girl had called(she had left rehearsals earlier) and asked what type of flavour I liked cos she wanted to buy it for her guy friend.She obviosuly wanted to buy it for me but I didn't want to believe it.Of course later,Aini and Wahida came back with a package.It was a collection of mini-muffins that they lit up and then proceeded to sing Happy Birthday.Roswell Girl couldn't join cos of some reason.I would have liked her to be there but sadly she wasn't.

The muffins were nice.No one other than my family has bothered to do something like that for me,and even then it was only when I was a kid.I really appreciate their thoughts.

Thanks loads guys...

Later called up my mates and they sent me well-wishes as well.These guys need not stand on occassion and I'm cool with whatever.

More on that card that Roswell gave me.Made the biggest impact on my birthday.She gave me a birthday card that she printed out and decorated a little.Two cute bunnies..me and her *haha*.Very nice and thoughtful words that affected me a lot.Real nice of her.A cool birthday card.

Then she gave me a letter as well,it was inside the envelope.

That letter,its contents...it was everything that I wanted to talk to her about but was too afraid.She came out and talked to me first through this letter.I shan't go into details for I believe the letter was 'Eyes Only'.That means it's confidential.It wasn't a confession of love but it wasn't one of cold rejection either.It was an honest yet warm hearted view of our friendship.

A friendship that I treasure.One that was never awkward,not even when she knew I liked her.It isn't even now,after the letter cos I talked to her about it for a bit.But it was nice to receive a letter.An old-fashioned leter.Hardly anyone uses that as a form of correspondence these days.Cooler if it had come through the mailbox with the stamp and all.

We conversed about stuff that I always wanted to with someone like MJ.Roswell Girl is great.She's kick ass.My mate said I should be grateful that she liked me enough and was open enough to come up to me first to talk about it.Even though we talked about it before class this morning,it was too little and I felt I had to measure up to her form of correspondence so I just an appropriate form of it this afternoon.It would have been so cold and impersonal had I done it by phone.

Speaking of phone,can't belive I got my phoned swiped while I was playing street soccer.All the contacts lost.It's been a couple of days and I've had time to get over it.

Seriously,the level on which me and Roswell Girl talk is quite unlike any other that I have with anyone else,save my mates.But even they will understand that this is just a bit different cos she's a girl and a real gem of a girl at that.

Da-y-umm girl..
=)

You Mean It's A Rerun?

School has started.The new timetable is a little bit of a bummer but I'll cope.But what's a real bummer is the teacher I got for my AOA module.Really didn't wanna get her as a teacher but I did.That just sucks but I'll have to grin and bear it.

I've got leave from lessons the whole day tomorrow because of on location shoots.I've got partial leave on Wednesday and full leave again on Thursday.It'll set me back a little on lessons but I think I will be able to manage.

It's my birthday on Wednesday and I just wanna be around Roswell Girl.I don't expect her and I don't need for her to give me a present.Just be around me.Spend time with me..*sigh* that would be present enough for me.So that's why I'm kind of okay even if I have to go back to class any not just any class but AOA at that.But cos of Roswell Girl,I'm willing to go back.

School's back and the thing with that is I have to learn to get up early in the morning again.Although it was 4 days out of 5 last time,when I had to be in school by 8am,its only 2 this time.

Look,school sucksThat is the general feeling everyone has.Last semester was supposed to be the slack semester according to the teachers and their bosses but how come I didn't feel like it was slack? I do feel a bit robbed in that sense and there is a sense of weariness when I realise that I gotta do it all over again this 4th semester which is reputed to be as tiring as the 2nd semester.And that's not even considering the CCA activities,which will slow down for me after the January Orientation Skit.

This is the last hurdle.Ain't no way in hell I'm gonna trip and fall.Not now,I've worked my ass off to get to where I am now,I ain't the best maybe but I did what I could.Speaking of which I will be looking for the student rankings list to see where I stand.I expect to be in the Top 20,though Top 25 could be more realistic.But the former is still possible if just a couple of people drop down.I was No 29 the last time.We'll see where I stand now.

Rome,babyRome,the symbolisation of a goal.That's what I gotta keep thinking about.

Maybe with my down-ass chick,sipping a cup of java and watching the sun set?

I got this to deal with first.

This Just Bites

Oh hey,once again,I can blog from home.A pleasant surprise.

Today wasn't that good for me.I lost my phone while having a kickabout.Damn,what a precious thing to lose.Nothing much I could do about it.And that bites.And it was a pretty good phone,in terms of features and practicality.

Now if I had the scholarship,I would use it to get a new phone.But I don't.And that bites.

Today the kickabout was held in of all places,Roswell Girl's town.She lives in another part of course but it wasn't long before I had the blues.I just miss her is all.If she was there,it would have softened the blow of losing my phone.I had half a mind to go over to her house and tell her everything,in rom-com movie style,which could end tragically or otherwise.The point is,I wanna tell her.

I just have these images in my mind.That she's being swept off her feet by some other guy.At this point I don't need her to be mine.I just want her next to me.Just next to me.That's all.But instead,she's being made to fall in love with some guy that's making all the right moves,saying all the right things.

God,it hurts me to type that last sentence.

She may be falling in love or not but it gets me down that she's giving other guys a fair chance.But not me.Never me.I'm always the nice guy.The one with a lot of friends but no 'special friend'.No girl.But everyone likes me cos I'm a nice guy.If I'm so nice then what the hell is wrong with me??I so feel like 'Mouth' from One Tree Hill.

You readers will start to think that I just don't have my head is in the right place and I'm being all emotional.I don't expect to be understood.My closest mates they know.I've always suffered from being a fool when in a love or infatuated.And it is no surprise for a fool to say foolish things.

For lack of better words or simply to understand how I feel now...today wasn't a bad day,Weird I know but I feel it's too general a word,bad.Immature it may be but I say today is a sucky day.

The nice guy has a sucky day.

It's The Final Lap

School reopens Monday.Still no sign of the scholarship.Must have got lost in the mail..I'll probably only get it after I've given up hope and least expect it.

Can't wait for school to open.Not excited about it but it's more like a 'whatever'.Gonna be busy straight off the bat with shooting for the video production and a performance on the 26th to think about.I may ask for 'leave' from the production on the 18th,get the other scriptwriter to cover for me on that day.Not sure what I'm gonna do,probably nothing.Not sure if I do celebrate,whether it would be with family,friends or me mateys.It has to be during the evening cos I'll be fasting during the day.If I had the scholarship money I'd probably go out to eat at a nice place but I don't so I'll have to see about that.

With the laptop all kooky,I'd expect to blog more from school.Hope the computer terminals will be accessible.

Nothing really much to update on,all I did these past few days were just chill with mates and come back late.Haven't been doing that these past few months so I guess it's real good that I've been doing that a lot lately.

Even yesterday at a few minutes past 12am,I was at a fitness corner in the neighbourhood,just goofing round with the machines.It was after a late,late dinner.It was so much better than coming back late from school,reaching home at night all burned out for the day.

Last semester in school.6 months and a fair bit holidays tucked in between.So that's a good thing.Only 2 core modules and 1 elective.This time last year I had 3 core modules to think about.Also,with regards to the CCA,I expect the January Intaker Orientation Skit to be the last major thing I do for the CCA,with maybe articles to write and a drama workshop to attend after?

I will be a daily grind.Especially with projects.Hopefully undergoing the Entroprenuership project last semester puts me in good stead.

These hols have been good.I've had a lot of fun and I guess now I'm ready to go back and work hard.After a non-existent break the last vacation,I really needed this one and I got it.

I have a song to finish writing.I'll complete it over the weekend.

Can't wait to see all my classmates.Although at times it can be a real drag with so many people,dealing with the stress of school life,there were times when it was fun.

That's a good thing that.

These Burning Questions

I can't dance my way into your heart.I wish I had the moves to impress you.Maybe then we could do a dance together.You look so slick and smooth.Would you find more reason to like me if I could dance? I'd like to think it would help.But I can't,even though I wish it so..

8 more days of holidays.Then school reopens for a new semester.Never thought I'd be counting down the days to school opening again,usually its for the days till the end of school.I wonder what has transpired over the last month,with regards to her,its effects unseen by my eyes.But I'd venture this much.Her boy's made much more headway back into her life,slowly chipping away at the psuedo-single status that she puts up for public display.

I'm feel so helpless that I can't do anything to help my cause.I miss her and I can't do jack about it.

Hah,I wonder if my teacher's reading this..probably not.But even others who are may be thinking that I'm generally down in the dumps and depressed.I am down in the dumps about this cos I really fancy her but truth be told,I've got many things to be thankful for,great mates in the hood, a great family of people at school and there's always my family.And oh yeah,I got a GPA of 3.7 plus that I really have to thank God for.

But like I said,I miss her loads.I'm just waiting to see her again.So many things I want to tell her,so many things I wish I could do with her together but would she even let me try? Is it over between her and her boy? 2 of numerous questions swirling round in my head....

Damn..I got all this questions in my head and what bites is that the only person who can answer them is her...

Just like the 1st song I ever wrote,I said,all I need from her is to give me a chance.We're great friends but my damn male ego wants more.I just wanna be around her,even as friends.

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Woah..I didn't expect to be able to access Blogger at home.Was bored stupid and had nothing else to do so I tried.So here I am,blogging..hmm..

Went down to Holland Village today and this time the meeeting did happen.Met with the consulting scriptwriter,she gave us her input on how to improve the script and what she said was pretty useful stuff.Then had another meeting with the producers to clarify issues and help assign segments to the 3 directors.

The pre-production meeting was fruitful today,that I have to say.Location recce on Tuesday.

Reflecting on my results,I'm really pleased that I've managed to recover from that utter claptrap of a C grade and pulled it all the way back up to an A.I did somehow trawl my way through the drudgery that came my way in the form of Office Administration.

But what I really like is my Entrepreneurship project.It's cool that we got an A but what I love is how it was obtained.

Under pressure from all sides(daily school life,CCA,other projects and part-time jobs etc) the resolve of my group did not waver and withstood everything that came our way.The great thing is,we had fun along the way doing it.Never before have had an adverse experience with other individuals and yet come out of it with a smile.

I love my group members for making it so enjoyable.Even when one of our group members was put out of commission due to an stomach operation,the rest just went about doing work,while she recovered.And when she came back,she approached the work with such gusto,chomping at the bit.

Presentation day came and we were forced to wrap it up early and continue later on.Disrupted our flow but the teacher said it didn't matter.

Yes,I was the only guy in a group of 5 and at times I was missing the male camraderie in the midst of a sea of estrogen but it was still fun.For real.The fact that Roswell Girl was in the group should be reason enough to celeberate.The rest were co-operative members and we had disagreements but we didn't fight and we always tried our best to have fun.

If asked,they may have a different idea of what this experience was but this is mine.

It was great fun and I love them for making it fun,making school fun.It was the 1st time in my school life where I saw a direct correlation between the amount of effort and the rewards reaped.I don't know how things are going to be in the future but I shall just thank them for the time of this Entrepreneurship experience.

Mille grazie,mi bellas...

There's Work & There's Play But She Makes My Day

Back again.

The video production is really starting to take shape now.As a matter of fact,I've got to turn in a complete script by 5pm Thursday.Looks like I'll be working through the night again,like I always do.At least the work is split up with someone else so its not like I'm flying solo.On Friday the professional scriptwriter will be coming in to fine tune whatever we've done.

It has been busy but it's also been fun.There's been a better balance of work and fun this time.

On Monday a couple of my classmates came down to the court to play with my guys.It was fun but I really think I could have done a lot better as goalie.I don't know whether to blame it on ring rust or simply the fact that I wasn't up to the mark on that day.Never thought that my school friends and my real life mateswould ever get to meet.But it went down okay.

On Tuesday,after a production meeting in school in the morning I met a couple of my mates to go catch John Tucker Must Die.Decent movie.Nothing more.Nothing less.It was fun enough I guess when you have people like Jesse Metcalfe,Brittany Snow and Sophia Bush in the movie.Nothing too outstanding but a worthy time killer.2 1/2 stars out of 5.

Before that we had done a round of bowling and had dinner at Burger King.The standard of service left mush to be desired and kinda had me feeling miffed but even then it wasn't much so lets just leave it at that.Had a round of FIFA multiplayer at a cybercafe before we rounded of with a walk around the Suntec megamall before taking the bus home.

A real good day filled with fun.

Nontheless,the past few days have been rather taxing.

Oh yeah,before I forget.On Sunday I stayed up till 4am doing a draft of the script.There was supposed to be a meeting Monday morning(before the soccer game) and I woke up at 815am to go and travel to the other side of the the island.Spent some time walking round the area looking for the place but I couldn't so I hailed a cab to go and find it.All this while I had been trying to contact the executive producer(an outside consultant) about how to get to her place and stuff but couldn't get through.I finally did when I was in front of her office and found out that she had passed the message to my other scriptwriter that the meeting was cancelled the night before.This other person did pass the message but since my messaging system is hampered at the moment on my phone I couldn't really get the message.

So I dragged myself out of bed for nothing at all.Great.

As I was saying,it has been rather taxing and I thought that I should stay in bed till afternoon today.I felt I needed to.But I was up by 830am,too excited about my exam results.I had tried checking last night but unsurprisingly the system was clogged up.It only came up at 9am though so still had to wait.

Entrepreneurship - A
Office Administration - A

Obviously,I got a pass grade for the 2 electives(not included in GPA calculation) I was taking.They're a waste of time if you ask me.Fun,but a waste of time.

Cumalative Grade Point Average(GPA): 3.761 (fyi,max GPA is 4,supposed to get as close to it as you can)

Good I got what I wanted for the grades.Wished that the GPA was at least 3.8 though.It's still an increase from the 3.684 from last semester.But in all honesty,it's pretty decent.Not too sure if I can apply for polytechnic with this semester's GPA or do I have to wait? If I can,that's good.It's a good score to apply with but not really thinking about that now.Just want to do well for the next semester's modules.

They're Marketing and Avanced Office Applications(AOA).Aiming for an A in Marketing and at B at least for AOA.I'd rather an A but it's a small challenge.Can still be done though.

Now,I really feel that I deserve that scholarship.In fact,both.It's up to God if I'll get both.Well,I should be getting the 1st one.The school's said I've already got it anyway.So where the bloody hell is it?Typical of the educational system's red tape.

Missing Roswell Girl.I know she's not missing me but till school starts I'm a sitting duck.She's probably out with some other guy or her boy.And she's says she's single.Perhaps her and her 'ex' are friends with benefits...no funny stuff,just leaves me wondering whether she's what she says she is(single) and where does that leave me?

I'll find out more the next time I see her.Probably when school reopens. Kinda miss her but like I said,nothing I can do.

Hmm..wonder how Roswelll Girl did.Probably same grades as me,considering we were in the same Entrepreneurship group and as well as for the Office Admisnistration project component.For the latter we also got the same grade for the CA component.Unless she screwed up for the exam(unlikely!) she should have the same grade as me.That would mean that she would maintain her GPA score of 4(a perfect score!)

I'm happy for her but also a little jealous.But hey,whatever,as long as we both make it to polytechnic.