Hey,haven't I been here before??

Damn 'backhand'...questions asked,questions answered.Me N MJ ?Its a no-go.I just don't get a good vibe from her.Half the time I'm left in the wild,wondering what she thinks of me. To be honest I didn't exactly make the best first impression and recently she seems to have turned up the dial on the 'dislike-kHai' meter or something.That's the kind of feeling I seem to be getting from her anyway.

My friends swear they have no idea what I'm talking about and they all say that I should not back down from my pursuit..Maybe they are right.Thing is,I don't know..see cos it sounds like a famillar place to me..I felt exactly like this about me and MJ about roughly 2 months back.Who's to say this story won't take another crazy twist?Way its been going,don't bet against it.Ladies and gentlemen,welcome to my crazy life,hope you enjoy the ride.

Triple Break Point

Finally played that long-awaited game of tennis.Exact rules and a technicalities were not imposed but hey,I didn't really care cos it was still tennis..Played a full set.Lost 6-4 but not too disappointed although I was unhappy that I was broken in the 3rd game.Almost managed to break right back in the next game but screwed up at Duece,a waste,especially after coming back from 0-40 down.

Ball moves really fast too.A lot more than I expected it to and that also means less time to judge the flight of the ball and hit it back.And we're weren't even serving it right.

Had a couple of good shots though.One was a good forehand that had real good depth and speed and landed sweetly on the line.But I absolutely tank at the backhand.I have no idea on how to execute one.If I ever have the chance to I will work on it.

Its Wednesday morning at the time of writing and I do have plans to go kick it later at a friend's place with a Playstation.Maybe some questions will be answered while I'm there.Questions I have,asked in the last post.Maybe I'll 'score' a cool dropshot with the answers .Its not an ace but its better than nothing.Fingers crossed....

And The Golden Popcorn Goes To....

Just saw the 2005 MTV Movie Awards on MTV.It was pretty much the usual stuff you would expect from MTV.Must make it a point to catch the movie Napoleon Dynamite and see what its all about.Looks pretty good.Jimmy Fallon was a good host as well.A couple of good spoofs,especially the Star Wars one.

One of my favourite categories..Best Kiss.Rachel McAdams & Ryan Gosling justified them winning the award by letting their on-stage lip-lock do most of the the talking for the award acceptance speech.It was pretty cool.

Another major talking point is the Tom Cruise-Katie Holmes media explosion.It is top news at the moment,especially for those Hollywood-watchers,perhaps only being challenged by the Brangelina saga for the No. 1 story.I just look at it and go..Damn..can't believe that Katie Holmes would be such a big Hollywood news-hit.First saw her in the 2000 movie The Gift.She looked pretty cute and still is.I never would have imagined her to hook up with Mr Mission Impossible himself.
(Note:Mission Impossible 3 is currently in pre-production mode,can't wait)

Anyways,this can only be good for Katie Holmes' career as it raises her profile.Just hope that it won't turn into and ugly disaster like Bennifer.I guess people are so crazy about the who thing is cos they are at the point where they are in love and romace mode,where they do all the mushy things.Being the stars that they are,the difference from most couples is that they are expressing their love for eaxh other with the whole world as an audience.Hollywood's need for gossip certainly acts as a catalyst.Tom is lucky to get a cute young gal like Katie,cos lets face it,Katie is cute.

Looked for pics of Jessica Alba at the Awards as well.Looked stunning(when does she not??)Got a bit more...news of a oversight on her part with regards to her dress that she was wearing.I won't give the link.Go find out if you want.I will be telling my friends about it,though.Its still news.

Now what about my own story?Me & MJ??Well,to tell you the truth,I'm a little confused right now.Like I don't think I should be pushing for stuff to happen and whatever happens,happens and then I'll take it from there but a friend says I have to make that something happen first,so I don't know.Maybe I'll know after the next few days.Watch this space.

Missing piece of the puzzle

Its a Saturday afternoon and I'm stuck at home alone with boredom for company. Nobody's called to holla.So I'm left here all alone for today.Its good to take breaks I guess but here's the problem...I don't feel like taking a break...

Yeah,I've had times where I literally had nothing to do for the day and it was a super lame day.But what's different about today is that I seem to be pining for a certain someone which kinda of surprises me cos I thought I was over her.But now really,I suppose.if I was I wouldn't be the way I am right?

What about my friends?Well what about them...they gotta do their own thing as well don't they? 'Sides,I've had friends not call me before and I've survived.So what if I 'm not with my friends..cos everyone needs a little downtime..get what I mean.Sometimes I just can't be bothered to keep calling them to ask them where they are.I do call them enough though so its not that I don't but sometimes its just a bother.

Anyways,don't get me wrong I still think of her as just a friend but still,I inexplicably miss talking to her.Sounds very simplistic enugh but its the little things that matter.

Evem as I look at what I just wrote above,I know that nothing can happen between us and I'm cool with that.For real.I guess she brings a different kind of prespective.She still seems to put up walls around her sometimes but that means I just gotta get to know her better right?

Shifting the gears smoothly

Haven't been on the computer for 2 days till now.Its all screwed up.Maybe still is.Blacks out at the start and stays that way and has a loud beeping sound which continues incessesantly.It does act normal though I have to keep turning the comp on and off and see if I get lucky.Ah well,what you gonna do,shit happens,right?

Had a good long talk yesterday with MJ,almost in a slacking session-ish setting.With friends around of course.Alone would have been nicer but I don't really mind.Found out alot about her,like her hometown in Forchheim,Germany and what it was like It looks real nice I have to say.

Also talked about her and her problem with a dude she can't shake off.But he wasn't playing the game right and heard how he was thinking of her as some sort of a 'trophy' and then act all hurt when she tries to leave."That ain't how you do it,fool !" C'mon,she's only at a certain age and he's expecting her to take the relationship all serious and stuff.I myself thought about it and acknowledged that fact only after she said what she said.

Found out she likes bad boys.She's attracted to the aura that they exude.Well that rules me out.You would think that it would bother me but no it doesn't.I mean,she's a friend and we talking well enough with each other and it'll be nice to keep it that way.Saves me from acting all stupid..like I did when I first met her.

Just want her to open up a bit more and be less guarded.Friends talk easily with each other and its getting closer and closer to something like that so its all good.I'm a friend and will give a my listening ear whenever she has a problem and be there if she needs me and that is that.I mean,isn't that what friends do?

Is a part of me still hoping for something to happen with her,you ask?I would be lying if said no but I realize that would be up to God to decide and I would continue being a friend to the best of my ability.But while I do hope just a lil bit..being more than friends is not a target or goal that I aim for by being friends with her.The only target or goal is the friendship itself and to make it last.,