Much Ado About Nothing

I'm randomly trundling through blogs in a futile effort to stave off boredom.

The drawback of having the United game on too early in the night.Nothing much afterwards. Pat on the back for the team who managed a wonderful comback win.

Mom's dominating the TV outside with her TV serials.From her room,she can actually watch two TVs at once if she sits at the right angle.

Annoyingly impressive.

Other than that,I've been appreciating the sounds of Muse and Avenged Sevenfold.Not much to shout about.

I have a sudden urge to watch Pride & Prejudice.Maybe cos I saw Keira Knightley on a mag cover.

And also,'A Cinderella Story'.ESPECIALLY that scene where Chad Michael Murray & Hilary Duff dance under that verandah with a violin rendition of Edwin McCain's I'll Be.In case you don't know,the moving marquee on my blog is the 1st line of that song.

MJ & Roswell Girl.That's song's been applicable.It's been a while and been through a lot.

I wanna do that one day. The damn VCD must be somewhere.The search is on.

Damn,yeah,I know me mates with be tired sick of that song.It's probably the song that has been played the most number of days on my blog.

Other than my sis,there's only this one other person who also knows and likes that song,an acquiantance..good for her.She's in love apparently.

Romance ain't a friend of mine.Last time I tried,I almost lost a friend.

Call me a wuss for liking that song,see if I care. Lol.It's on par with Mandy Moore's Only Hope, also a soundtrack number, from A Walk To Remember, another all time favourite as me mates should know.

I have no time for it though.

I want to read through my MacroEconomics.And do the tutorial questions.YES,I am studying this early on in the semester. Rather hard to believe actually.

Oh,I fecking miss my ITE days.I hope people there miss me too cos I miss em like mad. Especially those days when I'd come to the Comms Hub after class and there'd always be somebody there to chat with.

Oh crap,now I'm feeling down about not being in ITE anymore. But nooo,I'm in poly now,and it's like the big city,where I gotta work hard, graduate and make it big,just like some people believe that I can.

Is this post random or what? Woe betide me,my grasp on linguistic variation has deserted me.

Before I leave;

I'm hooked.

On Caramel Hot Chocolate.Damn.

Since You're Not Coming

I gotta get past this first.This course of study.To get my diploma.

I'm not too sure if I can use this diploma to do degree studies in Political Science at the National University of Singapore.Or maybe a private one.

Of course,after 3 years in poly,I will have to do National Service for 2 years.Which I totally feel is a block on my life plans.But I have to do it.I'll get a job when I get out.And do the degree during the job.I think I can,what with companies wanting their employees to be well-versed in many different aspects and stuff like that.

I may get a job in the 2nd semester onwards,once I've gotten used to poly life.Cos the way I see it,I won't be getting much income during National Service so I need to work now so that when I get out,I'll have some substansial finances to fall back on before I get a job.

I still want to have some aspects of the arts and drama in my life throughout. Screenplays, scripts, stuff like that.I've had a taste of it in ITE and I quite like it. =)

That's my professional life plan.Sounds rather officious don't it? Hardly,it's quite speculative.

As for my personal life,it's a mystery within an enigma but like I said,if love doesn't find me then I'll find those that the world forgot to love.Especially AIDS orphans in Africa.Yeah I'll do that.

I'd love to find someone to go to Europe with but I don't think that's gonna happen anytime soon given my non-existent track record when it comes to finding special people.If I can't work hard for that special someone cos she ain't there,then I'll do it for the poor of the world,so I can give back because I've been given so much in the first place.

"Big City" Livin'

I was comtemplating long-winded musings about recent happenings but I decided that I shouldn't try to rationalize everything because it would just take too much out of me.

I'll be brutually honest.If I were to use an analogy explain how it feels like;it would be like moving to the 'big city' from a 'small cosy town'.

I'm fine with the academics,that I know I can deal with whether it'd be tough or otherwise.

What I'm saying is that I'll be needing to rough this one out and it's hard at first cos I've been so embedded into the 'small town'.

The people are fine,but that's it,just fine.I don't expect to make any lasting friendships during my time here.I'm just gonna deal with that and get my diploma.

They're all fine people.But it's all polite interaction.Nothing more.

To continue the analogising,when you get to the big city and you get that an apartment and you live on your own and you gotta get a job.

Familiar faces are rare and the ones that you know to start to drift away and the thing is that hurts is that you can do absolutely nothing about it simply cos of the stupid reason that this is reality and that's the way it's supposed to happen.

That's it.I guess I'll end here.

Hi! My Name Is...

I have to wake up for Orientation in a few hours but apparently I'm still awake,typing this.

Hope it's gonna go good though.And also that it doesn't end too late.It's over two days so it better not.I'd be surprised if they needed to show me so much of the school that it takes up much more time than I'd like them to take.

Not quite sure how to act tomorrow.

Yeah,I know that I can act like myself but the question is which extreme do I potray...

The shy,quiet guy? Or do I bother to act as the sociable,outgoing guy that came to the fore during my time in ITE.

It's probably going to be the first one.The 2nd one will come out,depending on how receptive my tutorial mates are.I hope they're not quiet geeks.Haha.Quite unlikely.They should be quite a fun bunch.

Though I say for the record,I doubt they can even come close to ISF Class of '07 from ITE Bishan.I can be proven wrong but I seriously doubt it.

I hope the small age gap won't be a factor with the interaction.

I'll get my timetable and my matriculation card tomorrow as well.Both better be good.

For real.

For the former,it's more of a hope that I get a decent timetable.

As for the matrix card,I will not be amused if they mess with the picture or do any other funny stuff so I end up looking like a serial killer.Not at all.

Saw bags from Converse & Reebok that might do the job.Will get them before school opens.Decided it's no rush to get them before Orientation.Hopefully,I will get the Adidas shoes as well.

Looks like I will be busy right up to Sunday,I'll have a breather of sorts until I jump into a totally new and alien environment the next day.

Might meet up with a few mates studying there.The freshmen are mostly from my class anyway but I know others who are in the junior and senior years.

Here's to a good tomorrow and next day as well.

What I Would Give To Feel Apathetic

I need new shoes and a bag for school.If I get them,I can cross 2 things off my long-term wish list.

I saw a pair of Adidas Originals going for $79.Yeah,they're low-end stuff.The high-end ones cost anywhere from $160 to $200+.Still they're Adidas.And they are off the fashion line and not the sports line,which is what I'm looking for.

May buy them when my sis and my dad give me money that they were supposed to give.My sis owes me quite a bit.Don't mean to be petty but I do need to use it for school stuff as well.

I saw the Harley bag but I'd probably could do just as well with a less niche bag brand.Converse might do the job.As long as it's got the size without cramping the style,I'm good.

Yes,I do consider new shoes and a bag school essentials.Feels like it's right too.

I do have other wants.I saw the Frank Lampard autobiography and was skimming through it.It was kind of nice to read.But it was a hardcover copy and cost $30+.

Footie fans may view this with disdain,given that outside of Chelsea Blue,Lampard is disdained to an even greater degree.Well,given the skimmed content,I'd say it's the only one that is most value for money.

Ever watch American History X? I did last time and it's brill.I was just thinking about it and may want to rent it.The scene where Edward Norton's character kills the black guy gives me the creeps till today cos of the simplicity of the violence involved.

I've been wondering how my new classmates will be.Yeah,probably younger than me.But I hope that I can get along with them.Especially when it comes to projects.It's hell if project members are less than amicable with each other.Grades will then be affected.

I've heard that the Business School has nice looking girls and all.And that is a plus,but I don't really care.Okay that's a bit of a lie but it's sorta true somehow.

I'm over Roswell for a while already yeah,over it for my own good.Cos I have to get over it.Even if I don't want to,I have to and it's the past.

In the chase for the grade,initially,I might not be too bothered about chasing anything else.It'd probably be a lie if I said I would maintain apathy throughout all the 3 years but at the same time,I ain't exactly desperate to find.

Yeah,all that stuff about that dream girl is still there.Just thought that if she is out there and she's meant to come,she will come and there's no need to be on the hunt for her.If she doesn't whatever.If anything is bound to happen,it will.Simple as that.

About Roswell Girl,she's still a great girl and all those qualities I preached about her still stand and significantly,she's still a friend.

The damndest thing is that she's still appearing in my dreams.And in these dreams,I like her.For fuck's sake,won't my subconscious give it a rest? Ugh...trying to forget,I wish I could.

Noticed that in my last few posts,I've been quoting from movies and I realised that I posted 2 in a row and both these movies had Keira Knightley starring in them.

Gosh,she's a fit lass.That means she's a good looking girl.Her accent still kills me the same.

Hope dad can gimme the cash like he's supposed to every month.I can go get the bag.It's more important than the shoes,I feel.

Here's hoping.

Occupado

Woah been lazy to update and as a result,ponderings and events have piled up.As much as I can,I'll do my best to give a meagre update,at the very least.Even if it is meagre.

Lets see.

Completed poly forms and posted them in on Saturday.The poly should have gotten them by today.Monkey off my back that's for certain.

Had sis' belated birthday dinner at Fish N Co.Good stuff that.

On Saturday,I went to meet up with the other old CCA members.We just met at the cafe and chatted around.We talked about the possibility of coming back to the CCA and helping out and whether there would be a calculated manner of doing it.A nice long talk.Got home in time for the FA Cup game,which Man U won so,it was a fulfilling day for me.

Haven't been really busy.More like occupied.

Today was the Orientation Day for the April 2007 intake.The now-seniors had their skit and CCA Roadshow booth.

Damn the fact that it was in the hall.Down there,it makes the existing sub-standard sound system sound doubly worse.Not a help.But they did the best that they could.The acting ability is there,like the teacher knows.

For real.You did your best,ladies and germs.

Best thing to do is,takes the positives and smile.Take the negatives and work on them all for the sake of the next project.

Aside from that we got about 40 people who signed up.Do hope we can retain quality & quantity.In that order.A couple of guys.Good news,fer sure.We need more.Now that Taufiq,Sean & I are gone.

Saw a cute girl from the new intake too.She didn't sign up though.Just saw her walking around. Haha.Khairul,you incorrigible nimrod!

Yeah,Imran knows which one I'm talking about,I think.Anyways,just saw her for sight's sake.Nothing in it.

Many thanks to Mdm Salinah for treating me and 2 others to Swensen's for dinner.Really did not expect you to.

Vielen Dank!

She speaks German so,yeah....

Had a real good long talk with her which was very nice.It was also nice that she supported us in the fact that some of us wanted to come back and help out in the future.

People may ponder why I'm so actively interested in CCA that should hold no bearing for me since my time there is over.

Maybe it's cos it's become much more than just a CCA to me.It may not be much when compared to the grand scheme of things in life but it's a place where I am comfortable,as much as I can be and I don't mind coming back to it whenever I can.

It's got its ups and downs but what in life doesn't?

Orientation for poly is on Thursday and I am ambivalent about it.Just wanna get on with the studying.I hope to carry over my 'form' from ITE.

As & Bs Khai. As & Bs.

Gonna be tough.Or tougher rather.More modules per semester would mean more chances of GPA being pulled down.

Plan to go with Rina,Isk,Nareeza,Kelly.All ISF-ers.We'll stick together as much as we can before we get broken up into different courses and then tutorial classes.Hope to have the same lectures as Nareeza for no other reason than to have a familiar face among the 'almost-100-strong' lecture people.Majority would probably be young'ins too.

Oh,I rewatched Pride & Prejudice,previously saw it in the cinemas.It was real nice to watch it again.Not just cos of Keira Knightley(who I think is real nice),who was cool as the spunky yet-at-the-same-time romantically vunerable Elizabeth Bennett.The chemistry and interplay between her and Mr. Darcy is brilliant.

My favourite quote is one that is part of a longer quote....

Mr Darcy says to Elizabeth:

"You have bewitched me body and soul and I love, I love, I love you."

I also marveled at the complexity and arranged order of the level of English that potrayed life during pre-Victorian times.It was quite nice to hear and analyse it,understand it.

Way cool.

Upcoming plans?

Going to help Farah with her O Level English in the morning.Gonna catch a night movie with Isk,and then the United game is on at 3 or 4 am,I think.

Another busy day.Oh,not busy.That would give the notion of stress.Just occupied then.

Just Popped Up Amidst The Rush

Who knew enrolling for a school could be such a tiresome task. This form here and that form there.

Anyway as things stand. 5 people from my class (including me) are going to be in the same poly and the same school of study.Business,of course.3 to one course,2 to another.

Really would be nice when we bump into each other and we'd be like 'HEYY! I KNOW YOU! HAHA..'

If I had my way,I'd probably bring practically the whole class over.Haha,then it would be as if ISF never parted ways,they just changed location.That'll never happen but it's a nice thing to think about.

Another thing is the fact that we have to start thinking about what to wear to school.We want to look nice without overdoing it.

Regardless of whether there was anyone to impress,you'd still want to look presentable.After years and years of uniforms and clamouring for change,we actually find it troublesome when change does come in.'We' here refers to Iskandar and I cos we were talking about it.

I'm eyeing a new schoolbag too.Saw one at the Harley shop in town.It's probably expensive but it is nice.A necessity since lockers are more like optional in poly and you aren't assigned one like you can be in ITE.

Nareeza's been gloating about the fact that TP is just right in front of her house. Yeah,cool it chick.I get it.I will be cursing and swearing at the ineptitude of public transport while you will be strolling to school with only 15 minutes to your first class.It's bound to happen.Nothing I can do,innit?

Glad for you though.For real.Anyways,thanks for the helping hand today with your all-in-one printer/scanner/photocopier. Big ups on that.Will treat soon,promise.Maybe jellybeans,since you liked 'em so much when I brought them over.

I wish I could but I can't possibly move house just to be close to the school.It's almost about the same but TP is a bit further than ITE Bishan.

Will have to go and collect the medical report on Thursday morning.Passport-sized photos need to be taken.Payslips of working household members,testimonials,yada,yada...all need to be obtained for different forms that have different purposes.An undeniable drag.

And the cherry on top is that somehow it's burning a whole in my wallet.Even before school actually starts.

Ah,fret not.More true tales of yours truly being left,aghast,mouth agape and seething with rage plus whatever else will come as the days unfold.

To end off;

A movie quote popped into my head and it's been on my mind all this while.It's from a favoruite movie of mine and it's actually part of a long quote.

[The scene where the guy who likes Juliet - Keira Knightley's character comes to the door and confesses his love with signcards]

........-"My wasted heart will always love you"-.......

Memories come back when they shouldn't be.

It All Comes Down To This

I'm bored as hell so I figure I'd update now.I should have done so sooner anyways.

It's done.All the work towards it have paid off.

Results came in at 9am.Yet again.I managed to meet the target I set earlier in the term.

An 'A' for Marketing;
An 'A' for Human Resource Administration
A 'B' for Advanced Office Applications

GPA:3.738 (a drop of 0.013 points from previous score)

I expected to get what I had gotten for those 1st 2 modules.But I was very grateful for the B.It could have been much worse.For this module and its elementary predecessor (Office Applications),I expected much worse.But thankfully both times it turned out all right.

News came in the next day.While in school on a mini-shooting project.A call came in from a mate.

He had gotten in.I asked him to check for me as well.

As I waited for him to call back,my mind started acting up.Like what if I didn't get in,despite the fact that my score was pretty good.

But heck...

Thank God so much.

I DID.

I was offered a place at Temasek Polytechnic's Business Studies Diploma.Not sure which field I will specialise in yet.Will decide soon enough.I have a year to think about it.Meanwhile,I'm just happy to get in and be able to try and do well for the 1st year.

Haha.Speak of the devil.As I was typing that above,the postman came a'knockin with the Enrollment package sent by TP.

=)

Roswell Girl got into the same course as well.Cool.I know she's real happy.She didn't just qualify and get in,she pratically aced everything along the way.

Iskandar got into the course of his choice.Bugger did pretty well in the exams too.So much for him not wanting to study anymore.

TP seems to be a popular choice with my class.5 of the top 6 are going to be in TP.Will expect to see a few familiar faces.Plus a few old,more familiar ones too.A couple of my mates are there.

=)

In the package came something from ITE.It was the application form for 2 scholarships.Don't think I'll get them cos I'll be competing with a lot of other people but I'll give it a shot.It's real nice to know that I did well enough to be considered.

Hmm,I looking at a piece of the paper in the package,I was suprised to see that my GPA was stated as 3.938!

HAHA.Must have added in my CCA score.For which,I got an A grade too.Gave me + 0.2 to my GPA.Cool.

=)

I must thank Mdm Salinah,my teacher in the CCA.My God,that woman has more belief in me than I do in myself.So much it almost scares me.I've made mistakes though but I hope I have made her proud.I daresay I would never have pushed myself this far without her pushing me.

She may be working in ITE when she needn't be but by God,it would be a definite that she gets rewarded for her endeavours while there.I don't know about the others for sure but I say she has definitely made an impact in my life and made me a better person.

Of course,she would be the first person to say,that it was in me all along and she just helped me find it in myself.Perhaps,this is true.But God deemed it'd be her that do that.For that,for the belief alone,I thank her.

My teacher for the Public Relations & Marketing.Miss Amy Tay.Despite your whatever, somehow whatever she teaches goes into my head.I was a little surprised when she told me recently that I got the highest marks for her module in the class.

She's also the other teacher in my CCA.Yeah,so it's not just in the classroom.She may be one helluva overbearing stickler when it comes to getting work done and I and a few others in the class and CCA have been unfortunate times be subject to her wrath,I managed to understand enough and study hard enough from her teachings to do well in her modules and CCA.

I won't forget MIC that easily.Some of the current excos have asked me to come and help if and when I can.So I will.This Monday.Along with a few others,we will be back on the 16th of this month for the Orientation Day skit.

Ooh,ooh,I forgot to say,for that mini-shoot that I and a few others helped my Class Advisor,we got paid $40 bucks.Neat,huh?

I gotta go get busy dealing with applications.Tonight.

Now,I'm off to visit my dad at his place.

The Final Curtain Call

I know I should have posted sooner but certain circumstanses have prevented me from doing so.

Last Monday was the class chalet.We didn't do much,no real activities planned.But I think that was the point of it.We found the fun in just hanging out the last time together as a class.Many a goodbye had been said before this and there was no real need to have another prolonged one,we just enjoyed the moments together while reminscing about all the other past moments.

Many inside jokes were probably shared for the last time.The time at the chalet probably wasn't a disappointment.

Other than the BBQ,the other significant moment were when some of us played 'monkey',with a soccer ball.Hard to believe we found such joy in such a simple,almost childish game.But we did and we had lots of fun.

Of course,I was due a lot of stick from the class blokes when Roswell Girl played the game,no real surprise there,considering I played favourites with her.

I felt a tinge of remorse as I left on Tuesday night,a day earlier than I had planned.

I've enjoyed so many things with this class but there were also things I knew I could have done better.

Probably for the last time I'll say...

It's been a good 2 years,ISF.

As for the results,they will be out on the 4th of April,so good luck guys & gals!

Then on Thursday,I went back to school cos I was asked to help out a small school video.A few of my classmates are involved,like Nareeza & Wahida,so I guess I'll see them this Thursday for the video recording.

On Saturday morning,I was scouring for clothes at the eleventh hour for the CCA graduation event.It was nothing formal but I still wanted to look at least a little 'fly'.Haha.

So I bought this red long-sleeved shirt together with a black tie with red stars.Totally Topman. Totally Brit.

I feel that words fail to fully capture the emotion of the night but if I were to attempt,I would say it was fun in remembering the times.As with any good memories,all were looked upon with fondness,with a tinge of sadness.

The awards were really fun and so were looking at the photos.The most solemn moment was when the new exco took their place.It was sad but I didn't feel it just this time.There was a celebratory mood going on.

Things really kicked into gear at around 1 am or 2ish.It was way cool running round the school at the time.It was a fun game.In the leadup though we were taught that teachers in charge of a drama club weren't in charge of one for no reason.The dramatic reactions of certain members can attest to that.

Slept at 4 am and got back up only at 930.It was kind of liberating that we had no urgent work agenda to chase,unlike in previous sleepovers.

Had a storytelling workshop,where I can say that I learned things that I would look at and say 'Neat!'

It was time for all to go and those remaining seniors said their final words.

Hope you guys kick ass whatever you guys do it the future.

And those juniors should just rise up and bring their best despite the pressure,which can be real hell sometimes.

I'll see you guys on the Orientation Day on the 16th! A few of us seniors have already given word that we would come back to visit on that day.

It's been an eye-opening experience to say the least.

Farewell then,MIC Studio.