The Lure Of Words And Their Meanings

I almost dreaded coming online when I got home today.

I didn't feel like facing the bothersome project pieces that I needed to do.

It's just one more day. By 6pm tomorrow, it'll all be over.

Current blog song is from a mixtape. It samples Eminem's 'When I'm Gone'. Word for word, especially the 2nd set of verses, it describes how I feel or once felt. The whole song does. Listen, if you're bothered to, and you will know why I feel the way I feel about this song.

It doesn't matter cos on it's own right, I usually identify with this kind of song anyway.

And I still have to find a way to magically cram all those Sociological theories into my noggin for Saturday morning's final Socio assessment.

I went for today's Socio revision lecture. They're easy to grasp but Father Time isn't a friend of mine at the moment.

I think I'm really gonna jump to social sciences for my degree studies. Really, really. Might not stick around biz after TP.

Sociology? I've thought about it. Maybe still political science.

Till then, I have to focus on Sociology the elective first.

Granted of course, I do well enough. But that's a long story and a story in progress at that. One which I do not wish to visit again for the time being.

To end,

I wish I had another chance to run into you again. If God allowed, we could make an intellectual connection and I simply love those. Maybe we could talk for hours on end.

Maybe, who knows.

; blithe:

1.	joyous, merry, or gay in disposition; glad; cheerful: Everyone loved her for her blithe spirit.

2.	without thought or regard; carefree; heedless: a blithe indifference to anyone's feelings.

Spy Experiment

I'm supposed to be revising for my Sociology main test on Saturday but still I'm swamped, dealing with project(s). There's still Socio but that's all right. I'm mainly talking about Prin Mgt's 2nd mode of presentation. I have to come up with the short script which is very much a hassle.

The vacation is coming up and I'm looking to get a job at Times, Kinokuniya or Borders.

I bought The Great Spy Experiment's album on Monday. Good album and I mean it; with it's Brit-rocked,psychedelic, power-trip tracks.

But I say that they're just 'The Good Spy Experiment'. They're better 'live'. In fact, they're 'Great'.

Standout tracks include 'Dance With Me', 'The Great Decay and the titular track, 'Flower Show Riots'.

4 out of 5 stars. An excellent effort by a local band, increasing in fame and mainstream popularity.

They still haven't forgotten the underground though, with their incessant gigging at different events.

Shit, my eyelids are drooping. And the script for the roleplay is still bare.

There's something about you I adore
Yeah you are the one that I keep wanting more and more
Hopelessly, endlessly, honestly
Hopelessly, endlessly, possibly
So come on please tell me your name again
The hours that I spend in your eyes
This feeling in my pants I can't disguise
Oh my
I won't forget again
You are my only friend

'Miss Kensington' - The Great Spy Experiment

How poignant. Slightly lewd for my taste though. Haha.(4th last line)

I guess I'll call you Miss Kensington for now....that'll do.

I better go off now.

I know, not much in today's post. Too little time. I just wanted to post the above lyrics. Maybe when the weekend rolls around.

Forced Frenzy Comes With An Accompanying Soundtrack

This long day is over.

The day started at 5. I wouldn't have stopped to sleep had it not been for the fact that I would be having a test at 7pm. I knew I needed to so I managed to catch some shuteye for 3 hours.

I found out that there were errors in the report. I decided against calling my group members to rectify it as it would mean more delays. So I went ahead and did it myself, with the approval of the group members of course. Handed it up and started studying for the abovementioned test only 2 hours before its scheduled time.

Didn't do too badly. Probably will pass but not really expecting high marks.

Went to meet a mate. She wanted my opinion on ITE and how different it would be if she were to do private studies. The bus service was being a bitch and I had to take a longer route to meet them cos the quicker bus service was too crowded.

But having that Venti Java Chip from Starbucks really helped me chill. I really needed that as a pick-me-up.

So now, only presentations are left, Sociology and Prin Mgmt, both on Thursday. The last thing would be the Socio common test 2 days later. And then there would be nothing else in my way to start mugging for the exams.

Oh, for a reason that only God knows, these songs were running through my head DURING the accounts test.

Of all artistes and of all the songs...WHY? ESPECIALLY this first one...



And also this one...



Especially the line, "You can be my brown-eyed beauty", around 00:59...

It doesn't make sense, I know not of any brown-eyed beauties that have grabbed my attention in recent times.

And why such outdated songs that was hot, but waaaay back when I was still in secondary school, years ago?

But throughout the duration of the test, I thought it was totally weird these 2 songs were interchangeably running through my head.

I asked my classmate whether music runs through her head during tests and exams. She said 'no'. But that's the case for my mate and I. I remember Moby playing in my mind during one of the papers in last semester's main exams.

Do I need music in my life that badly? Maybe. I know for a fact that I'm very attached to my Sony Ericsson Walkman phone. It's part of my lifestyle, music + communication on the go.

It's been crazy these past few days, also tried my luck in submitting an (incomplet) 12-scene script to the TP Drama Prez. Could be worked on in the future. Even if it isn't, I'mma work on it myself cos I already have the storyline, I just need good dialogue.

That and the hectic rush to complete the projects as well as we can have taken quite a mental toll on me. The test at the tiring time of 7pm on a Friday was the one that took the cake, the symbolic culmination of all the chaos.

So tonight and for a good part of tomorrow, I plan not to do anything that will stress me out.

Halo

I wasn't gonna post till later tonight after I got back all tired on a Friday night, till I saw this...



Lucky guy. But they look nice together, even though he's way older(31) and she's only 19 this year. And the song fits the too-short video very well.

Apparently their moniker is 'Halo'. From Hayden (Panettiere) & Milo (Ventimiglia). She's 18 and he's 31. Wow. But I've seen worse age gaps between other couples.

Just for the record, he plays her uncle in the TV show.

Nice to see something nice from one of my favourite shows.

Right I'm going back to editing my Principles of Management report due later on.

In Memoriam, I Hold Those Dear Closer, I Celebrate With A Life Unwasted

A sobering day.

The big news for everyone who cared today was Heath Ledger, dead at 28. While certainly not of James Dean-esque proportions, certainly close to River Phoenix's. Both of whom also died young. The iconic Dean passed having only released 3 major movies. Yet his name still remains synonymous with the (in)glorious nature that befall those who die young and famous.

I remember watching A Knight's Tale almost 10 times because AXN and HBO had it in rotation for loads of times.

When I heard it, it was a bit shocking cos I was just bored the night before and decided to look through movie trailers and one of them was 'The Dark Knight' in which Heath plays The Joker. I remember thinking that he seemed a bit 'iffy' in that role and I couldn't wait to see how he really did in the movie. And now, barely 24 hours after I watched the trailer, he's gone.

If that was sobering, then the next piece of news is truly worrying.

Grandma had a fall in the toilet. Hurt her hip, she can't sit up without it hurting. My cuz who stays there was at home to help her up and call an ambulance.

Thank God that the X-rays found no fracture.

Still, being at her age, her bones are brittle and it's maddeningly worrying.

But she's all right. My sis and I went there and we were there with the one relative's family, to just visit and be around. I suppose the other relatives will be making their way there.

I don't know how lame or vulnerable this makes me sound but if you must know, this grandmother was the one who raised me while my mother went to work.

I always had this idea in my head that she would be there when I got married...no...wait...IF I get married.

Okay, IF I got married, I'd always thought she'd be there. Why? For the simple reason that she'd be there to see the face of the girl that was insane enough to take a chance on me.

And also, it'll be sorta right.You know, a full circle kind of thing. From boy to man, that kind of thing.

I hope she'll get up and about sooner rather than later. Though not too soon that she doesn't recuperate sufficiently.

I was in a bookstore for less than 5 minutes today. I saw at least four books I wanted to read.

You know if I was rich, this kind of thing would be one of my little indulgences. I mean, if one was rich enough to buy cars, one wouldn't be out buying a new one every single day right?

I'd buy all the books I want to read, the original CDs of bands I want to listen to (which would stop the pilfering of music) and watch all the plays and gigs that I want to.

Fulfilling my resolution would be a cinch then.

Oh speaking of my resolution, the Mosaic Music Festival is on from the 7th to 16th of March. The only highlights for me so far are Great Spy Experiment on the 9th of March from 9-9.45pm, located at The Living Room @ The Concourse.

My cuz is also performing from 5-5.30pm on the same day at the Singapore Art Cafe.And then again on the 11th of March at the Nokia Powerhouse from 7.30 to 8.15 and then from 10-10.45pm.

So those are a couple of things that will fill up my itinerary in March. Plus, maybe a few jazz shows? More in hope though. Anyone a fan of Harry Connick Jr.? Or at least wanna go see him play?

Oh no, I also so wanna save up for the Queen-inspired musical 'We Will Rock You'. The interesting storyline helps pique my interest.

See, many ways for me to fill up my artistically-curious mind.

If only I could go for them all. Those that I want to anyway.

Sports-Centered

Mugging for stats, stopping now. Will continue later on at night.

Been missing the Australian Open 2008. =(

Missed watching Novak Djokovic play Lleyton Hewitt. Making it a point to be at home tomorrow when Maria Sharapova plays 1st seed Justine Henin.

It's the most accessible Open tournament but I'm missing it. I remember the times around 2004 when I used to follow every round and also the time when I used to get up at around 3 in the morning to watch the US Open.

I used to rate tennis very highly a few years ago. I still watch out for results but it's been ages since I've sat through a match.

All this while, Federer's still the man on top. Talk about staying power.

If I wanna be back by 4 tomorrow, it means I'll only be going for the POM lecture on Wednesday at 11 instead of Tuesday.

I hope it's the same guy lecturing. He was my tutor last time and he's a nice guy.

There's another show at the Substation this Saturday but I don't know if I'm going. I wanna go but it depends on how keen I feel.

Maybe I wanna do something different having already gone to a show last weekend at Ngee Ann.

We'll see.

I just found out that Step Up 2 will only be shown here around March 13 instead of February like I expected. Dang. Will have to wait to see how new up-and-comer Briana Evigan is compared to Jenna Dewan. Oh and RnB star Cassie of 'Me & U' will be in a supporting role as well. Trailer looks promising.

I can't wait for the 2nd quarter of the year to come. That's when my estate will finish it's upgrading process. It's very irritating now cos they're clearing the concrete parapets to make way for floor-to-floor lifts.

No real consequence to me cos I live on the 2nd floor.

Drills and concrete. Not ideal music.

Especially on Saturday mornings when I sleep in till later than usual.

I think Man Utd are in Saudi Arabia tonight participating in a testimonial match for Saudi legend Sami Al-Jaber. I wonder if they're televising the match.

Oh no, a possible distraction for my Biz Stats mugging later.

Off The Hazards And Onto The Green...For Now

A little less flustered but still occupied.

The Micro project deadline kind of snuck up on me. Stayed up till 6 this morning to finish it and collate everything from my group members.

But it's over and done with so let that be the end of that.

Biz Stats test tomorrow. Constitutes 5% of my final grade. Given my dismal showing at the term test, I need every single bit of that percentage.

Maybe, if I hadn't gone out on Saturday I wouldn't have had to rush to finish up my Micro project.

But I'm glad I did cos I got to see Great Spy Experiment and Plain Sunset play their sets at 'Xplosion @ Ngee Ann Poly Open House'. We came too late too see the rest play.

My mate made a social faux pas when he derided (barely a) celebrity, Paul Twohill as 'That stupid Paul Twohill!'(something along that line) Which I didn't really mind if it wasn't for the fact that the subject of derision was standing only about 5 feet away.

My mate didn't realize how loud his voice was and I sure hope the music drowned out the poorly veiled insult.

It's simply just cos I think it's really awkward to insult someone standing so close to you and then remain there, pretending to be oblivious to the awkwardness of the situation, with the insulted person being so close.

That aside, taking into account the journey and the environment of the school, I'm real glad Ngee Ann isn't my school.

GSE was cool but Plain Sunset connected with me more.

One of their songs ('The River' I think) got picked up as the soundtrack to a Channel 5 'Heroes' trailer.

Speaking of Heroes, if it was possible to do so, I think I probably would have died from an overdose of Hayden Panettiere.

Die by overdosing on Hayden? To be honest, doesn't sound that bad. I wouldn't mind. Haha.

Star World was showing the whole 1st season of the show on Saturday and repeated it on Sunday. So it was Heroes pretty much for hours and hours over the weekend.

Heck, even my mom watched it and now she knows how the 1st season ends.

As for me, I'm waiting for the 3rd season.

I was disappointed that it had so little episodes compared to the first season. But the endings for a fair number of episodes from the 2nd one did leave me shocked. So, I guess it was good value. Even though they had a pretty unnecessary storyline involving 2 new characters.

Right, off for my much needed afternoon nap.

'Will you still be waiting on Queen Street?'

Digging In For The Hard Fight

Everyone's feeling the squeeze. I know not of the situations in other institutions like MI and the JC's but I think that I can safely say that the ITE and poly students, except maybe for RP, is in a slight panic mode.

There is a countless number of us out there, fretting over project deadlines (and some of us, gasp! exams!!) and filled with dread at the possibility that we might not meet the various project requirements. This is perhaps the most strenuous part of any school project. This is the moment where schoolwork takes a slight backseat to that deadline.

Oh, to be honest, I don't know how other students are feeling. But it seems impossible that I'm the only one feeling whacked out from so many projects.

For those of you who only need to move at a cantering pace while the masses run about like maddened fools (in our minds anyway), you are to be saluted for you have mastered time management and beaten the eternal enemy of the student: procrastination.

Do note that I do not claim to have the most difficult project nor the heaviest of schedules. I am just lamenting together with my brethren about the pressure we face at this time of the year.

I am making noise because it is my burden. As heavy a burden seems to be to an onlooker, none feels its weight more than the one carrying the burden.

I'm taking a risk but I have to. I'm planning to sleep soon. And wake up at 3 to start on a part of my Micro project. I am simply calculating that there is no way that I can do it now, go to sleep and wake up for school which ends at 1, finish up projects till 6, before going for drama (if there is a session this week).

I could do that but I will be drained down to the tips of my hair and have nothing left by the end of the day.

The weekend will be further spent on finishing up the Micro project and doing other projects for other modules.

My plans for going to Xplosion @ Ngee Ann Poly Open House to watch Great Spy Experiment and other cool bands on Saturday have now officially gone up in smoke.

And trust me when I say that some of my peers have it worse then me. I feel for you guys.

To end on a positive note, today was the prelim consultation for my Sociology project.Even though it was last minute, we all did our parts well enough to earn the highest mark in the class of 9.5% out of 10%.

Yes, I fully realize it's only out of a measly 10%. But I'll rejoice in the smallest of victories, a slight relief while dealing with life in these dire times.

An Afternoon Pause

I don't know why I've been so blog-happy these past few days.

I think that boredom has to shoulder some of the blame. But I can't discredit the fact that I've wanted to blog out my thoughts at the moment and not find it a chore.

I was just telling my mate about the benefits of technology on an inter-personal level.

I was just thinking about the past. Our grand-dads, when the liked a certain girl(factoring out arranged marriages), had no choice but to do it face to face. Sure, maybe they would get their friends to chat up the girl for a bit but they were gonna have to face the girl if they wanted to find out about her.

These days? No such thing. Well, there is, but there are also numerous options the interested party can undertake in his quest to gain knowledge about the girl.

I've lost count of the number of times a friend has told me they got to know someone online.

So when a guy sees a girl he likes, he could Google her (sounds so wrong on some levels, don't it?)

'hey yeah, just go ahead and Google her'. Google...haha.

Yeah, from there, he could see what social network she was on. FBook, Fster, Myspace and of course, her blog. He could get to know loads about her without actually saying a single word to her and she won't even know he exists.

The next step would be then to make contact from there through any IM service, Windows Live being the most common round these parts and then that's where things start.

It's almost stalker-ish. But everybody's done it on some level. Technology has allowed us to know and meet people that we would not have possibly known existed under traditional (outdated) norms during the times of our grandparents.

Our grand-dads couldn't do that. If he wanted to talk to someone who lived 3 towns away he would probably walk or take the bus to that town and that doesn't even take into consideration he has to gather up the courage to initiate and continue decent conversation without falling to pieces in a jittery mess.

The veil of technology saves us modern brats all that trouble.

That concludes my recently-constructed, ill-informed opinion expressed in this post.

I didn't go school today. Wanted to finish a glut of uncompleted assignments and projects.

I must have been away on the day God was passing out good time management skills. =|

I Want John Nash As My Best Friend

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

Why am I so reluctant and dare I say, afraid when it comes to Business Statistics.

It doesn't help that I'm already so despondent when the idea of doing Stats pop into my head, I get frustrated easily with the numbers.

I've always bred this stigma towards numbers ever since I was young and I've got to cure it somehow.

I have to sit down and keep doing questions over and over again and not only that, I've got to get them right. No point in doing so many but end up getting them wrong and not doing anything about it.

I wish someone with lots of patience could sit next to me and tell me where I went wrong when I do go wrong.

I wish my best friend was a mathematician.

Before I went to post this, I felt like giving up. But I think now, I'm ready for another go at it.

I know I can ask for help. There is someone. But I feel like I've troubled that person enough.

It's not my ego. If it calls for dramatics, I'll provide by getting down on my hands and knees (for numbers? who would have thought huh?)

I really just feel that I really have troubled that person enough and that's already on top of their busy life.

I'm gonna try to sit through tonight and finish what I have to finish and do it well.

Even though I still want to attend an early lecture tomorrow.

Goddamnit. I'm gonna act like it's prison. I'm gonna make Biz Stats my bitch. Well, at least the 'Sampling Methods' & the 'Central Limit Theorem'.

An Insomniac's Mind In Random Mode

I know it's late and I'm supposed to be getting ready for school tomorrow but I'm here instead so there, let it be the end of that.

I can't really get to sleep.

A thought crossed my mind lately. But it's only for those interested in Hollywood biopics on drug lords.

As it is, my mates and I are rather interested.

As you all know,American Gangster is currently showing in local cinemas but I caught in early November '06, thanks to an Internet leak.To me, it was a good movie but it wasn't great, like we had expected it to be.

Denzel Washington plays Frank Lucas, a 1970's Harlem drug kingpin named Frank Lucas. I also watched the movie, cos my favourite rapper, T.I. was playing Frank's nephew. T.I. gets shot in the back while running from the feds when they raid the house.

In 2001, the ever-versatile Johnny Depp, played George Jung another drug kingpin.

And slated for release in 2009, "Killing Pablo" will be showing us the life of Pablo Escobar, a Colombian drug lord who became so rich that in 1989, Forbes magazine listed him as the 7th richest man in the world.Javier Bardem is currently lined up to play the man himself.

I think that Pablo Escobar has a much more interesting story than the other 2. But it all depends on how the movie portrays him.

The thing about American Gangster that I didn't like was the fact that Frank Lucas was always in control of the situation. He always seemed too cool,even after he got arrested and charged and I find that hard to believe.At least they showed George Jung's vulnerability when he got screwed. I can't wait for 2009 to see how Killing Pablo will come out.

If you're wondering why I'm speaking at great lengths about this, it's just cos that's what my mates and I do talk about sometimes. We like to talk about movies, some well-known and some not that mainstream and sometimes we talk about the stories behind these movies.

That, and also getting irritated but yet dancing along to Soulja Boy. That song has an irritating addictiveness to it.The dance isn't too difficult so it makes it lots of fun.

Speaking of movies, I'm hoping Denzel won't get the Best Actor nod at the Golden Globes. Not because I don't like him, cos I think he's brilliant. I just don't think his performance in A. Gangster merits one, unlike Training Day. Also, just to spite and taunt a mate who, thanks to his obsessive fanaticism about Denzel, I knew way too much about A. Gangster and way earlier than I needed to.

A trend amongst us, is that we've been slacking less and less, which is good I think cos it means we're wasting less of our own times and we get to do other stuff. Even when we do, it's loads more fun. A decrease in quantity has led to an increase in quality. We're meeting at different places now instead of the usual place, which makes it more fun.

See ya geezers at Starbucks at Sengkang eh?

I might be heading over to Xplosion @ Ngee Ann Poly Open House next Sat.11am-6pm. Lots of good local acts playing.Looking for tag-alongers. I wonder if me mates are interested.That night, United are playing so it will give me something to look forward to when I go home.

Lots of people don't really support local indie acts cos they're not as polished as the overseas ones that they see on TV but I think I'm beginning to see that sometimes, being raw and unpolished is good too.I mean I always knew good local acts were around in the underground, I've heard em. Just never really been bothered to follow them like I am now.

Oh, to cap things off, you know how American rappers always never fail to be representing their 'hood' or region? You got Snoop Dogg for the LBC West Coast, Fat Joe for the Bronx in NYC, Nelly for St. Louis and T.I.(undisputed King of the South, I do believe) and all that. All of us talked and we realized how ridiculously hilarious it would be if we Singaporeans had a great hiphop scene and tried to represent like their American counterparts.

It would be fine if they stayed in Jurong or Tampines cos that would be the West Side and the East Side.But in Singapore, we have the North East line and a rapper coming from Hougang would sound dumb shouting "North-East, where you at?" and then proceeding trying to do an "NorthEast sign.He would need both hands.Could you imagine a local trying to say that in hip-hop slang? It would totally ruin his image man.

Oohh, maybe we could be H-Town. Just like how Atlanta is A-Town?

Gosh,I'm cracking up just thinking about it. Maybe you find it stupid. Maybe it is. But it's these stupid things that crack me up sometimes.

Many Ways To Spend A Week

Another week draws to a close. Project deadlines have move much closer.

No school this past Friday so I headed down for a chalet that had been planned for quite a while.

It was pretty neat. Having a kickass sound system early in the 2nd day helped loads. It was a pretty big bungalow, 7 bedrooms in total.

It was fun with an element of creepiness involved, given the remote location and its proximity to an eerie old hospital, which we went to go and see in the dead of the night. Not recommended for the faint of heart, even though no one saw anything.

Yesterday, after I reached home, went for a late dinner at East Coast with dad, made me rather full.

Got home an hour before the Man Utd game started. Pleased to see the team hit six past woeful opposition.

It isn't too bad a way to end the week but having said that, I could have spent it another way if I wanted to.Not just for this past weekend but the whole week.

Throughout the week, there have been events and shows that I could have attended but missed for one reason or another.

It's kind of okay cos I didn't have too bad a week but I am displeased with myself cos I'm not following my 'resolution' of going new places.

Besides, had I gone for this one party on Saturday night, I wouldn't have been able to see Man Utd win 6-0 on the telly.

I can take comfort in the fact that it's only the beginning of the year and there will be many more gigs, shows and events to come.

Without a functioning hard disk drive, I feel so unmotivated to replenish my music library. Same goes when it comes to movies as well. All of it will clog up my laptop system and slow it down anyway and I don't really want that to happen. Much more than I want to have a large media collection.So it'll have to wait.

I wanted to head over to dad's place today but a lighting storm put an end to those plans. He had an away United jersey waiting for me. It may not be a Grade-A original like I would it to be but I appreciate that my dad got it for me. I would rather have the black 3rd kit which my brother got cos it looks way nicer but I can't cos it isn't my size.

4 weeks before the start of the revision week. 5 before the exam week. It'll be over before I know it. I'll be too busy studying and completing projects to notice the weeks fly by. That's what happened last semester so I expect it to happen again.

Disastrous Beginnings

It's only been a couple of days but I feel like I haven't posted in ages. I was wondering why that was and I think that the reason is cos so many things have happened. Not just to me but to people around me.

For me, it's more of hassles and inconveniences and pure bad luck but for others it's a just outright frustration and turmoil.

We haven't had a good start to 2008. It's early days in the year and we are flailing to grasp at the confusion and turmoil around us.

Where do I start? I'll just cover my random and boring details, stuff that happened to me. I won't really go into details about others' problems cos it's not my place to be commenting on them.

First off. MIC Studio. This is really how I felt.

Sleepover to prepare for the now-past Jan 08 Orientation.

It was a lot of work, a lot of stress. But I feel that I cannot truthfully say that I contributed much. It feels that way. I felt so inadequate and inept for not being up to standard.

Habib, the main SA, seems to have a good bunch of 1st years on his hands. A capable and TALENTED bunch.

Anyways, it was a sleepover where I only got 1 hour of sleep.I came straight from home after coming straight from school.After I woke up, I had to rush back to TP for a PACE workshop before coming back to Bishan to take my laptop.

I felt strained. But I know that others felt worse than me. I know this is gonna sound selfish but I was wondering if having too many things on my plate will eventually affect me but without me realizing it.

I just don't think that someone who is supposed to be totally geared towards TP and really doing better at school should be feeling so displaced when he has to rush for this and that and something else.

There has been a couple of times where I've skipped lectures for MIC or skipped MIC for lectures.For the part of me skipping lecs for MIC, it's not their fault. It was my prerogative and I take responsibility for it.

My point is that, I'm trying so hard to give to both that I end up not giving my best to either, which is what they deserve. So, the question that comes to me is if I should rule myself out right from the beginning? Out of MIC of course, cos I can't rule myself out of school.

Maybe I shouldn't have been involved in this particular project right from the off cos of the timing of it. I thought I could balance my time but turns out I can't do it all that well. It may not really be affecting me physically cos I can handle that part but it's may be affecting me mentally and I'm not consciously aware of it.

Anyways, MIC's skit was yesterday. I hope they killed it, like MIC always does. Heck, I know they did, that's how good I think they are.

I don't know if I'll be back to be involved in the preparations April '08 Orientation skit. As of right now, I think not but in the end I think I will be. If I am not involved, I'd still probably come and and peek in and help just a bit.

At the end of the sleepover, my beloved hard disk drive malfunctioned, leaving me with none of my music, movies and PICTURES. I feel sad for the pictures cos they're the only memories I have of some good times.

I can still recover them, but I must find a way to pay the market price of a minimum of $200. That's the cost of the data recovery service.

=(

That really, really, really sucks.

I have to find up a way to come up with the money.

Oh, due to the 'brilliant' civil administration service at the Ministry of Education, the army people were alerted to the fact that I was no longer schooling. I had to go all the way to CMPB to clarify this and the clerk told me that even though they had alerted MOE, the latter is not doing anything to actively fix the problem.

I don't know if it's just ineptness or a system glitch but sometimes, students who are studying are listed as 'not studying' and those who aren't are listed as 'studying'(how lucky are these 2nd group of guys?)

Oh, on the day that I went to CMPB, another mate of mine SMSed me something about someone and I don't know why, I couldn't stop smiling in anticipation after that.I looked like a right mental case, what with me seemingly smiling to myself.

Oh and on the way to CMPB, the bus passed by GESS (not really hard to figure out the acronym but the reason is still a secret for those who don't know) and this made me smile even more.I looked like a real jackass.

I really hope I can do what I said I wanted to do in 08. 'go new places, try new things and meet new people' and not just say it and then not do it.

To my mate who is mired in turmoil and controversy,

'Hang in there mate, the rest of us are here if you need us and you'll make it through this shite.' Just like Earl man, it's all about Karma. Looking forward to the happy times for ya again, just like J-Man and Chandy! (inside joke)

To my dear friend who's had to question his/her(for privacy's sake and to keep people guessing) very cursed luck, question the point of trying so hard and making him/her feel like almost giving up,

'I don't know if my virtual words can make it better but hang in there. all you can do is keep going. don't give up cos you ain't alone cos I know someone else who is willing to be there for you through it all. Actually, I'm there too. Like I always told you i would be, as a friend, if you ever needed me. But I think somebody else has first dibs, hahaha! Maybe I don't know what it's like to walk in your shoes, but I can be there, walking right next to you'

It sucks to see my friends all down and uncertain.

Tribute to troubled thinkers, teamed in yours truly's thoughts through the theme of trials and tribulations

The Danger Of Overindulgence Whilst In The Spirit Of Discovery

Okay. I know I'm supposed to go about how this is the first post of 2008 and everything but it's just another post, just another year.

To all those who know me, sincere annual greetings and joy I wish upon you all.

Resolutions?

Nothing really absolute. Just thinking I should continue doing what I've been doing for 2007.

Going to places, trying new things, meeting new people and having new experiences which leads to have an interesting and varied life. Sounds iffy and intangible.Yeah, it may not be something straightforward like 'gain weight' but it is what it is, so there.

Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I want to do more different things. I may not end up liking everything new that I do but at least I could always say after that I've already went through the experience.

Does it have something to do with me being older and aware of it. Fine, 20 is just a number and isn't like 21, but I'm only just starting to explore things.

Poetry and spoken word readings,movies, film festivals, jazz bars, international plays, local plays, rock gigs, rap battles, student parties, club house parties and more of the like.

Some of the stuff I've tried, well most of it actually. But I want to do more of it.

And interspersed into all these things are of course, the usual, namely school, CCAs, slacking with the mates.

I was trawling thru Facebook and other online sites like the Good English Movement website and other assorted ones and apparently there's this acoustic/rock gig at Timbre near the Substation. Might get me mateys to tag along, if they're really serious about doing new things as well.

Really, my mates and I, we're sick of the same old, same old.

Oh and I don't know why but everyone was talking about Facebook today.

It all comes to a head for me this weekend. This is the time where it will be obvious to others that I have a clash of commitments. This will result in me having to sacrifice one and rushing for another this weekend, just so I could prioritize one that I deem to be more pressing.

That would be the show for Jan '08 Orientation. Lots still need to be done. Afraid of coming up short in so many aspects of the show. Indeed, very afraid.

Perhaps I should attach a footnote in that earlier resolution warning me against having too many things on my plate that will stretch me physically and mentally. I must know my limits and not be overambitious.