Keep On Keeping On

I actually started on this post a week ago.

I guess I've been too busy/lazy to finish it, but I decided to use it again as it's still very applicable.

It looks like another week of staggered little deadlines, sandwiched in between two drama sessions. Pretty much the same way it's been for the past month.

And thanks to Nareeza giving me some seaweed chips, I've been wanting McDonald's to bring back it's seaweed shaker fries.

I remember when they had it. Some days, I used to get an extra order of large fries just cos I wanted more of the seaweed-flavoured fries. It's weird though, I don''t actually eat the seaweed slices that they sell at the corner stores cos I find the smell I bit too strong. But apparently, I like 'em fine on fries.

The pre-installed trial for Microsoft Office on my laptop has just expired and I've got no cash to go and get the full version.

Not till tomorrow. That certainly puts me in a spot of bother, considering the amount of typed work I still have to get done.

Rihanna's Take A Bow (and its various cover versions) seems to be a popular song for bloggers to put on their blog. I've come across at least 3 blogs with that song. There are more but I just can't be certain of the blogs where I came across the song.

I realized I haven't been out for quite a bit.

For 9 days, I haven't really slacked or met the mates. Thank God for instant messaging.

Slowly, as the hours pass by and deadlines come and go, my project load gets lighter and lighter.

Wait, I think it's more correct if I say "Excruciatingly, the hours pass by..."

There's still a lot to do.

MBS test tomorrow.

HRM Presentation, Wednesday.

French Speaking Test, Thursday.

It's about time to start studying for the exams. It might seem a little early, but I actually need all the time I can get.

Oh, I just remembered, Psychology common test next week. and I'm missing a few chapter's notes. Better go get them tomorrow.

I might seem irresponsible and might be down to poor time management but I think I'm only gonna start focusing on the script for Magus Luna after the projects (except for the Psychology presentation in 2 weeks) are over and done with.

School...damn, that's all I ever talk about. Is my life so devoid of variety that there is nothing else?

The world's a big place that I'd love to explore but at the end of the day, all I want to is to come back to wherever you are.

I'm loving my current blog song.

At the risk of being too direct..

I wish you'd stop hating on yourself. You're much more and much better than you give yourself credit for. I wish you could see what I see in you. I wish you had more reasons to smile cos I don't like to see a dear friend like feeling downbeat. You've got a tenacity and determination that's gotten you farther than all the haters expected you to reach and you've been through so much.

Others might say I make you out to be too perfect but I say that I'm your friend because your imperfections make you who you are and they make your plus points stand out even more.

Whatever happened to the more carefree days that we once knew?

If I could go back, I'd bring you with me and we'll have a ball of a time reliving the memories.


Who's this for?

A friend. Will it been seen? It doesn't matter. I've said my peace and I'm not too bothered about speculation.

This post has a mish-mash of topics of randomness and also topics of particular importance and depth.

Which will end here.

Crew Crazy

As previously mentioned, I have the new Magus Luna script and even further back, the Psychology project video and Dramatec admin stuff to do as well. Those things are still on my plate.

Tomorrow, I'll be meeting my classmate to do the French speaking test script.

I have to submit my part for the HRM report by Monday. (I must admit that this is probably killing everyone else too)

On Sunday, I'll have to meet my dad to help him with his part-time school stuff.

And something new on my plate, I have to be present for my mates' soccer match as I am tasked with writing match reports and will have to set up a blogspace for the team. It's fun but it's still something on my plate. I must say that writing match reports will be much more fun than HRM reports.

Haha.

Play? It's been ages since I did so properly. I might as well have "retired". And even if I wasn't, I probably couldn't find the time to play. Not with all these things that I have to do.

I've been watching episodes of the 2nd season of America's Best Dance Crew. I think the field is more even with each team having their own strengths and weaknesses. I don't think it's gonna be like last season where it allowed the Jabbawockeez to kill it every week.

You can watch it here. No judges comments, I think. You can still get some of the earlier episodes on YouTube, if they haven't taken it down. I think this user still has some proper vids.

And Jabbawockeez are making appearances everywhere now. Like the BET Awards Show, MTV Movie Awards, MTV Asia Awards (I wanna go see them there!) and also get spots in videos like these. They're really making full use of their 15 minutes of fame.

Yeah, I think they're great but I expect them to fizzle out sooner or later. The usual with reality show winners.

I guess this is my small joy before all the work that I will have to be buried in the near future.

I Want My Heroine Back

Last Monday, my Magus Luna performance group overhauled the storyline that we had come up with and went with a completely new one. I have to come up with the script but I ain't even able to think of the title. If you take away the fact that I'm one of those guys that don't start work with by thinking of titles first.

But even then, I'm still stuck.

Thank God the project meeting for tomorrow got junked. Not that I really hated it or anything. I would have come, but it's just that had the thing been on tomorrow I would be dead tired by the time the end of drama rolled around at 830pm; having done project work for hours before that.

I can't wait for Heroes to come back in September. I miss Claire Bennet aka Hayden Panettiere. The word round Tinseltown is that real life partner and co-star Milo Ventimiglia is shopping for wedding rings.

SAY IT ISN'T SO!!

I'll try not to begrudge the age gap of her 18 years to his 31 years and they do look cute together but I don't really like the thought of Hayden Panettiere being off the market so early. I mean, c'mon, she's 2 years younger than me, for God's sake!

It's most probably the rumor mill's work again and it's not really true. But if it is, I suppose Milo's looking to tie Hayden down pretty early so she doesn't get away and then marry her in a couple of years.

Lucky bastard, or as the french say...bâtard...

I can't wait for September to roll around.

Not only will Heroes be there but so will Season 4 of Prison Break.

Teevee's gonna be good again.

Especially when Hayden P's oncreen.

Haha.

I did my French online test. 7/10. Bummer! I expected to do better. It was the same score that I got last time.

French speaking test in two weeks. Scary.

We'll Go Wherever You Want To

Oh good God, when will the madness end!

One thing about my life during the school term that I find quite true is that I hardly go out. With the exception of the spate of movies in May, (for the sake of spending time with friends while I still could) I find that I can be totally immersed in the mindset of being at school that any free time is mostly made up of slacking around the hood or just chilling at home.

The thought of going out and having a good time doesn't cross my mind.

Now, I'm stuck with

• Magus Luna script
• Scriptwriting workshop assignment
• HRM PEER TEACHING NOTES (ARRGGH!)
• Dramatec admin matters

Not for the first time in many nights, I'll be getting some shut eye and then getting up in the dead of the night to do my work. I think this is better than doing work and then sleeping late. At least my body's had a bit of rest.

This will probably go on till the submssion of the HRM project at the end of this month. From then on, it's mugging for the exams. Needless to say, everyone in my cohort will be happy come the end of the week of August 22.

Till then, we expect little rest. In fact, we're expecting to get more and more drained.

All that is on top of CDS common tests, tutorial work.

Human Resource Management is the proverbial kitchen sink in an already heavy pile.

Dates to note are 2nd August (CDS Common Test) and I think my mom and sister are going to Jakarta for a couple of days. That'll give me the run of the house but I'll probably be too busy to notice, with Magus Luna just a couple of days away.

At the end of it all, I want to run. I'd dearly wish you'd take a chance and run with me.

For once, break your shackling ball and chain and do what makes you smile, without a care in your heart.

Think not of it as nothingness, but a plan and time set aside for random joy. Your random joy.

Thunder

I want to get a game on my laptop. Probably something cheap like Hitman, the first one. Just something that can entertain me for a bit.

But, for the coming months, I'd also like to get,

• Football Manger 2009 (slated for release 31/10/08)
• T.I.'s newest album, Paper Trail (out 09.09.08)

I really hope to be able to start mugging for the exams soon. Maybe by sometime late next week.

There's this girl, whose name I've been trying to find out for the better part of a year and a half and I'm nowhere close. She's in the same course as me.

I happened to be in the same classroom as her once recently and the teacher that I wanted to see called out her name but at that moment I was focused on noting down equations and I didn't realize till after that the teacher had called out to her.

If only I had listened, I would have known her name now.

Truly a "D'OH!" moment.

I'm not sure if this is already playing on local airwaves (cos I don't really listen to local radio) but I like this song.I couldn't find an embeddable version of the video so I took this really nice self-made video that has very nice pictures that fit the song.

Boys Like Girls - Thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

7..6...

The mate's off to NS tomorrow. Good luck to him, but not too down about it. Will be seeing him in two weeks time anyway.

The gang's thinning as one by one, we go off to serve the country.

I've just been to the 4th scriptwriting class today. Hard to imagine, that come 2009. A short play will be staged based on what 10 of us have written. Even harder still, to imagine a 2 hour play in 2010, in conjunction with TP's 20th anniversary, being staged at Audi 1 and all the high and mighty people there to watch it. You might say it's pressure to come up with something good but at this point of of time it's too far away to be anything.

Just realized that I have roughly about 6 weeks left to the exams. Which is pretty short. I arrive at joy and fear. Joy for the fact that it's 7 weeks left to the holidays and of course, 6 weeks left to the exams.

I think I'm starting to get bitten by the soccer bug again. I can't wait to get my hands on the new edition of Football Manager 2009, though it's still a few months away from release.

I've been browsing through lots more vids on YouTube nowadays.

I like this song.

Colby O'Donis ft Akon - What You Got



Laterz.

From Thy's To Trance

Mein Gott! The German maestro, Paul van Dyk is coming down to spin at Zouk Singapore on Sunday 28th July.

Alas, most of the partners in crime will be booking in into camp and whoever is left will be too insignificant to make it a good, fun night.

A waste. Paul van Dyk's is one of my few favourites in the trance scene.

Went to catch MacBeth yesterday night. Made a rush of it by coming slightly late. Got better seats after the intermission.It was nice to see a live version after reading about it when I was younger. A very decent play If only someone would tackle Twelfth Night or Othello next.

MacBeth had mad eye contact and presence. King Duncan, for those who know and remember, was the Indian old man, who played the provision shop owner in the long-running local series, Growing Up.

No school today but as usual, I'm swamped in projects.

I had a driver problem with my new laptop since yesterday but I resolved it by calling Acer for technical support. That's good cos my mom never knows that it happened. Not like it was my fault at all, it was an internal software/hardware thing But all the same, she'd more than likely think it was my fault.

Glad that didn't happen.

I sorta screwed up on Monday. I know she's gonna say to me that it's okay. But I know it's not. She doesn't need one more buzzing round her peskily. She's already got so many she has to deal with, at at time where she doesn't need it and doesn't want to deal with it.

The easy way out is to pretend it never happened. I don't know what to do. I know what the right thing to do is. But I'm afraid that she wants to pretend as if it never happened. I say that cos I'm thinking she's not in the mood to deal with stuff like this right now.

I'll have to wait and see and suss out the situation a bit.

I actually have more to ponder but I'll save part for another day.

Habitual Posting

I don't know why and how I've managed the find to blog regularly again. Not too many read this blog but it's never been a numbers game for me. It's somehow still alive after 3 years. I'm just glad I have a place to express myself, for my own sake and if whatever I say befits the interest of others, so be it. Hardly think so though, I'm about as exciting as drying paint.

Every damn time the inspiration to blog hits, I forget what I wanted to blog about in the first place.

Going to see a local production of MacBeth tomorrow. Hope it's good.

Tsk, tsk, I am now multi-tasking. I'm working on a project, blogging, Facebooking and surfing the Net all at the same time.

I finally finished reading the copy of "To Kill A Mockingbird" that I bought last year. Just to see what the all the fuss was about.

Next up, "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" by Ken Kesey, written in 1962. Apparently, he wrote it while he was high on drugs like LSD. Interesting.

Also, Ernest Hemmingway's "For Whom The Bell Tolls"

Yeah, I know this following song is dated but I think it fits so very much now.



It's obviously a cover of an old Mariah Carey song.

And just for kicks, for those open-minded people when it comes to music and also for those who will be bewildered and asking what in blazes am I doing, listening to such a song comes the following...

Imran Khan - Ni Nachle(h)



While I'm not open to all kinds of music, I like to think I'm pretty varied, being able to change from listening to Avenged Sevenfold, Imran Khan, Carrie Underwood and Daft Punk with relative ease.

Right, I'd better get back to the project then.

I suffer now to love and be loved later. Good night, love.

Fatherly Yearn

Went out with dad and the rest of the family yesterday. Pretty low key. We hit Raffles City mall for a bit of cake before we drove to the airport for a very late dinner at the 24-hour Breeks.

It was nothing special but us kids were pretty light-hearted. Making jokes and messing about with the camera.

Sitting next to my dad, I did catch his expression a few times. I couldn't really tell for sure but I was certain that there was a sense of contentment within him, seeing his kids all together and all merry.

In the past, I did say to the close friends that I don't want to be like him, in the sense that I didn't want to make the mistakes that he made. How he left my family before I was born and he wasn't exactly a responsible person. He left before I was born and left my mom for another woman.

I'd really like to say that it's all water under the bridge but because I love my mom I can't. I think it's one of those things that doesn't really ever go away but we make it work somehow. My mom and my dad don't interact much, they're hardly at the same place at the same time ever but we make it work. Looking at the positive side, $I have a stepmom, a half-brother and 3 half-sisters and I consider them as such, brother and sisters.Plus, of course, my sister that lives with me.

He's much different now. He still makes mistakes that irk us but he tries.

I tried to put myself in his shoes and imagine being his age and having six kids, minus the divorce and remarriage. The word 'crazy' comes to mind.

I mean, 6 kids? "What the hell wrong with you, dad? Lol! Me with 2, 3 maybe. But SIX? Haha!

He says he likes it when he sees all his kids together. If I were to imagine again,maybe I would like that too. It's just that I've been focusing on the girl, as is normal for one having my youth.

So, maybe in that sense, I am my father's son after all. Just not have SIX of 'em!

So that ends it.

The Jabbawockeez are gonna be at the 2008 MTV Asia Awards!

Now, I wanna go! It's in Malaysia on the 2nd of August so I don't think I'll get a chance to go. But I sure wish that I could.

Till next time...

Like everyone else, I wish I could turn back time and do better for you.

Too Tired To Think Of A Smart Title So Here You Go

It's late I'm tired and I want to be at school bright and early later to do project research but I guess I'm making a post here.

Just came back from watching Hancock. My third movie in as many weeks. It was aight. Nothing spectacular. 7/10. Maybe 7.5, just cos Will Smith was the lead.

I have a test coming up, which I simply have to ace next Saturday, given that I missed the last test.

"I haven't seen you in a while. I kinda miss you. I wonder what's going on with you but you're probably too busy,stressed and excited all at the same time to wonder the same about me. Actually, I wonder if you even do at all. It doesn't matter, it never has. Go on, soon enough the world will see you shine, just like IToo knew it was in you all this while."

They're having offers for volunteers for the upcoming F1 race. Non-paying, but I think it's worth it. Thing is, the race is in September and during the fasting month so the though of standing in the hot sun from Thursday's practice session right through to race day on Sunday suddenly isn't that attractive.

I'd better get some shuteye while I still can. Hopefully my dreams will be better than my morbid reality. It's fine by me cos I admittedly have the nature of a dreamer.