Artistry Takes Center Stage

Today was another nice day.

After school I went with Roswell Girl and a couple of other classmates to catch Scary Movie 4.It wasn't a memorable one but hey,it was funny,I have to give the movie that.I loved the part when Anna Faris was talking to the little ghost boy in 'Japanese'.Its not a great movie but the laughs are worth the $7 bucks.Its just a movie to go to if ya just wanna have a fun time.31/2 out of 5 stars.

I also bought Teddy Geiger's album,'Underage Thinking' today.Reading the lyrics,I was very happy and pleasantly surprised to see that he was able to write and capture some words and ideas exactly in the way I've always wanted to express myself.I've yet to listen to the whole album but it sounds good so far.Lyrically,I can identify with him cos he's around my age but of course he's so much better with his songs.

It may not be the best album but that's not what I'm looking for.For me,song writing is a truly creative and inspiring way to state your ideas and it involves a lot more of playing with words than just writing them down plainly.Its just wordplay..just like how Jason Mraz sings it...

On my way home,I was onboard the bus and I was so engrossed in reading the newspaper that I missed my stop.Not by a few but enough for me that I ended up in a totally different part of Singapore.I got down,crossed the road and I was quite happy to see that I could take another bus which stopped at the closest possible stop to my house.I just saw the funny side of the whole situation..not a big deal but this never happened to me before,especially not missing my stops by as many as I had.I just texted my friends that I had just been with earlier about my stupidity and I'm sure they had a chuckle or two when the read my message.

Watched the Romeo N Juliet DVD when I got home.It was just kinda nice,the whole colour of it all and the flowing beautiful language of Shakespeare.Shakespeare juxtaposed against contemporary Verona,it paints a picture of jarring yet matching opposites.

Just 3 hours of lessons tomorrow.Cool.May have to stay back for my Ent module but I don't mind.Its the last two days of school before my term break,which is 3 weeks long.So that's cool.

Superman Returns opens tomorrow.May or may not catch it.Pirates Of The Carribean : Dead's Man Chest is the top priority.

Its Like Bad Medicine

Been spending the last few hours watching my OC Season 3 episodes.Things took a while but AS THINGS STAND, Ryan & Marissa are going off to the same college.Seth's heading to the east coast but Summer's in another college 20 mins away.That's better than nothing considering that Marissa didn't wanna go to college and Summer wanted to go one in the west coast.

There was Taylor Townsend,the girl who had an affair with the new dean of discipline but Summer found them out,Seth took pity on her and Taylor started liking Seth because of it.She starts out as such a conniving bitch but things work out okay...SO FAR.But Taylor is kinda nice looking but Summer is still da bomb.

Still have one more episode to watch but I thought I would leave the show at a nice place.

The producers didn't waste any time for this 3rd season and the drama just is on the max right from the 1st episode, unlike the 2nd season which was a bit draggy.Great series and I'll keep watching till it ends.Which could be quite soon from what I hear.

Tonight was great,I finally had some time today to myself.Even had time to chill in school with no CCA activity to attend to.I went hope and GOT A NAP ! Woke up and bathed before watching The OC on my laptop.

The afternoon was a very annoying time.It was just mostly me.I was angry at myself mostly.

Angry at myself for still having feelings for Roswell Girl despite knowing she likes another guy and despite knowing that she's not the one I really want.

Maybe I've said it before but heck I'll say it again cos its my blog.I think I developed whatever it is just cos I see Roswell Girl almost daily whereas MJ has been almost nonexistent.Roswell Girl's been a cool person to have a friend and it doesn't help that she has endearing personality which is infectious.She's darn cute too like a cat.I like cats.

If she had been single then perhaps it would have been a different story.But even then,I know that MJ is the one that I like.Even though I don't see her as much as I would like,I still should on my part,still continue my interest.

But I can and have psycho-analyzed myself to know why I like Roswell Girl more than MJ.All those things above is because Roswell Girl is much easier to gain access.If I was seeing MJ almost daily I would not be having this problem.

Granted,hypothetically,if anything were to happen with Roswell Girl it wouldn't be a bad thing.For the first time,I'm acknowledging that could itself be a problem.If I keep thinking or dreaming that something could happen,then its probably not gonna be helping me forget Roswell Girl.

I really shouldn't be thinking about her.Easier said than done.

I'm off to another campus tomorrow for a CCA event.No class from 10 onwards.Hope it ends by 3.Roswell Girl's gonna be coming along.

Ya see what I mean? I see her almost all the time.

AM Extra

I just needed to write something.I don't know why but I'm in a creative funk and I need some sort of release with words.Its just sommething I do.I get this kind of mood once in a while.Hope this doesn't last till later on in Sunday afternoon.

Was supposed to meet a classmate later for location scouting for our Ent. project proposal but that got canceled just before midnight,when she messaged me via SMS.Hmm,this cancelling thing seems to be developing into a trend.Hope it doesn't spoil the fun plans.Not too many work plans or else I would have a bottleneck and would be under pressure to complete them.

The Germans have dispatched the Swedes 2-0 with relative ease.All over before the game clock reached 13 minutes with two goals from the excitable Lukas Podolski.

The Argentina v Mexico game has got off in a similar vein with 2 goals inside 10 minutes,the teams having a goal apiece.Mexicools have had explosive start,catching the fancied Argies on flat-footed.Expect the latter to pull through still but we all knwo that football is a funny ol' game innit? Would love to see promising star Javier Mascherano play a more active role in the midfield but its highly unlikely as the box to box work is done by the more established Esteban Cambiasso.The former will just sit front of the defence to protect it.I see in Mascherano a young Nicky Butt.I hope he will influence the midfield from deep as he gets better and older and not fade away.

The winners will have the Germans lying in wait.With a partizan crowd behind the ,it would not be easy for the opponents.I think the Argies would make better ones since they have the experience of knowing what to do having been World Cup mainstays.If the Mexicanos were to reach the quarters,I think they may get overawed by the ocassion.They also tend to be inconsistent.

Its shaping up as an exciting match with both teams having a natural attacking instinct.

Well now after learning that I've got the weekend off,I hope there would be something for me to do.

Off to watch the rest of the game now.

Free Time

The act's been canceled.I won't be acting on Monday or Tuesday. Thought I would be happy but instead I'm disappointed that I won't get to test out how 'not shy I am' anymore in front of a large crowd.Disappointed but I guess also relieved that one project has been struck off my list.

Also just completed the article I was supposed to write.In all honesty,it should have been done a lot earlier but I was bogged down by other project and weariness.The latter being not a very good excuse.

Nothing really major to blog about.Just a regular post.No show on Monday and Tuesday means that I have today off from what was supposed to be the final rehearsal day.

Not quite sure what to do with this sudden free time that I have.It feels kind of strange,almost surreal.Like it was something common back when I was 16 two years ago but now that I'm 18 going on 19,I've had to accept not having free time.

Soccer? Not sure about that.Definitely not if the gang is playing in the field like they have been recently.Would like to be back at the court to try and play the DM C position ala Javier Mascherano.Not saying I'll be good at it but would like to get a run out after a long while of not playinng soccer.If I did play,I would like to do it in a relaxed, fun way.

I wanna catch Garfield 2.Its been out for a while I know but it reminds me of my cat at my grannie's house and its just one of those cute,cheesy movies I catch once in while.Scary Movie 4 is out as well.Am I the only guy that thinks Anna Faris is cute? Last time I saw her was in Friends as the surrogate mother to Monica n Chandler's twin babies.

This is not working.I still don't have anything to do.Maybe I could just rest today.Even if anything comes up later I may not even be up for it.

World Cup's only on at night.Germans playing today against the Swedish.Argies v Mexcians.I would like to go and rent movies but I have a lack of cash.Till this Wednesday at least.

I'm off to read the paper.That's a start.Maybe something else good will come along later.

Got An Idea ? Scribble It Down !

I was suddenly called into my Section Head's office.The Section Head is like what you would call the Departmental head,in charge of all the teachers in that particular department.There were a couple of things she wanted to run my me.

Firstly,there was this planned campaign about autism and they were gonna do ads and shows about it.I figure its headed by an outside company but they are looking to involve some students as well.The benefit that the students get is that they actually will be working in tandem with professionals who will impart skills and know-how that they have to the students who will learn about the production process.Aspects like camerawork and scriptwriting,among others I'm sure will be covered.

My Section Head said that she was gonna put up my name for it.Not the only person of course.Thing is,I'm actually quite interested cos this will give me a peek into how things like this are done in the real world.The chance to work with professionals,or at least people who do it for a living sounds nice.

My only concern being that the thing may take up a lot of time.I forgot to ask how long the thing would be.I should have.I can't say for sure.The only positive is that it may take me away from other CCA projects.

I'm worried that it may clash with my Entrepreneurship module peoject.I don't want to slack on that because I don't wanna let my team down by always being unavailable because of this project.Its an incentive that Roswell Girl is in the group as well and I wouldn't want her, especially her,of all people in my school to think poorly of me now would I?

The other thing that the Section Head wanted to run by me was another scriptwriting competition.It's short in duration,just 24 hours this one but if do then I really gotta step up to the plate.It ha been highlighted in the news in the past years the competition has been run

Its a 24 hour scriptwriting competition.I have to write one within that time.I'm gonna be put in a room which is quiet and tranquil and write a script for a short play.The thing that puts me off is the fact that it has to be AT LEAST 12 PAGES LONG ! No spacing between the lines too...

Dang..I've never written a full script ever.Only help with ideas and finishing up partly written scripts.I like writing scripts yeah but never considered myself any good.How do I even get my story to reach 12 pages.Yeah,having read novels,I have a vague idea but no way will it translate to me actually doing it.The benefits are obvious,even more beneficial than those of the current national competition I'm in now.At least I'm in a group for this one now.This new one,I'll be going solo at the deep end.

Even the script for the Oscar-winning 'Good Will Hunting' was written by a two-man team. Yeah,even Ben Affleck and Matt Doman had each other to help out the other person.

My stand now is as such.I will accept the first project and reject the second one.Must find out more about the duration of the first project though.

Been having this craving to watch Romeo N Juliet.The modern one starring Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes,directed by Baz Luhrmann.Its kinda cool, and if anyone knows how to make it spectacular,its Luhrmann.Moulin Rouge anyone? If you thought memorising a normal script was hard,imagine doing it with Shakespearean English.Is it called Victorian English?

This reminds me that I was supposed to return my DVD's to the video store yesterday.Oh yes, I should remember to rent Napoleon Dynamite as well.

Still rueing my missed chance yesterday when MJ came down to play soccer.I was of course,stuck in rehearsals.I already expressed my distress in my previous post,after knowing thru an unammed source that she was gonna play soccer.Therefore, I need no reminder of my misfortune.

Vengeance Visits!!...With A List?

Looks like a couple of things today...

I want a job to be independent.Financially independent.No hint of rebellion here but having more cash would help me in getting both my wants and needs.Some out of neccessity,others less so.But yet again the tired phrase of a city dweller rears its ugly head...I don't have time !!

Well,erm, its the last week of the June hols for those who get to enjoy their semestral break now.Thought I could get in on some of the action but I've only managed to do so on a minuscule level,having the odd free day here and there.Better than nothing I know but I would have thought these two weeks 'break' would have felt more 'liberating'.

Soccer at the court? Barely made it for a day I think.Wish I could have more days there (but not too many !) but I've still got projects left,right and center to complete.

The June holidays should have made it easier for me to see MJ,seeing as to how she was gonna be on vacation and all but its the last week of her vacation and I haven't caught a glimpse of her yet.Yeah, I'm supposed to be treating MJ as a friend.But I'd still like to see her around,if ya catch my drift...

Nothing wrong with that considering that we haven't seen each other for months.Not quite what you would call the close friends.

CA was today.I expect to get a B,skeptical about an A.

England game is on later a 3am.Likely to sleep before waking up to catch the telecast.

Oohh..3 movies are coming out that I must watch.Superman Returns is the typical superhero blockbuster movie.Miami Vice's kick-ass trailer does it for me.The one that I am most eagerly waiting for is Pirates Of The Carribean:Dead Man's Chest.Why? Simply...Keira Knightley.That alone leaves me in a good place.Not enough for ya mate? Johnny Depp,actor extrodinaire.Eye-candy for the girls? Orlando Bloom.

Watch out for those 3.Especially the last one.

I was speaking about projects earlier and I have a list here...not in any order

1) Skit performance at 2 campuses
2) Entrepreneurship module 2nd proposal
3) Personal n Interpersonal module project - learn 20 German words
4) Thinking Skills project - Come up with a creative way to improve anti-shop theft methods
5) Article on CCA Club, with focus on national project
6) Teacher's Day skit script
7) National Competition next round*

*if we get through.

Add that to one core module,for which I just had my CA/term test.

Yeah,these are the reasons why I guess.Why I hardly have any free time left.Time that I could use to take afternoon naps,go out with my friends and hang out at the soccer court,playing soccer(or not playing maybe..lol)

Yes,yes...I can hear you.Some in the mass crowd are yelling...''I've got worse than you",Yes perhaps you do.But there is an intricate reason why the abovementioned are called my problems.Cos they're mine.

Oh God,maybe this is payback for all the free time I had when I spent a year in limbo taking my GCE Maths as a priavte candidate. *Laughs*

I've got to vamoose now,off to one of my numerous projects.

Rehearsals,I come hither to thee.
Alas fair maiden,another dawn and night shall pass and woe is me,for I shall not gaze upon thy lovely face.

It Seems We're Having Dry Spells

I would like to take this moment to lay the plaudits on for Argentina who put up a masterclass display in football today.It was something that football fans and to applaud,allegiances notwithstanding.It has broken whatever reverie the World Cup may still be in.This is where it starts to get a little more interesting.

I wanna get Teddy Geiger's album as well as the one by Angels And Airwaves.The latter is headed by Tom Delonge,formerly of the now-defunct pop-punk pioneers,Blink 182.They seem to have a good sound.BUying both albums cos I wanna explore their songs and find out how they lyrically express themselves.Not sure if I'll have enough cash.Gonna buy both next month but really,it would be less expensive for me if I were to get one this month and the other next month.

So Roswell Girl's been telling me stuff that happens between her and her new guy regularly.I'm pleased to say that I've manage to dispense sincere advice without any ulterior motives.Any inkling of disappointment I have regarding Roswell Girl,is almost nonexistent,if not well masked by friendship.

She's a tad more troubled nowadays but I've have always told her to keep her sunny disposition going.Honestly,I hope things do get going between her and her new guy.

Well,what about me? No worries.In the past I would have lamented about what I would have considered an unfortunate situation.But as regular readers know,I am in a better place regarding that matter.Yesterday's post about her was the usual,periodical update on the situation.Also it was because a personal development that only another mate knows about,I just had to restate my stand on the issue.

It turns out that it wasn't MJ who wrote the comment.It was just another passing soul with a view to express.But like I said,irregardless,what I said in the previous post would still stand cos they are still valid points.

Another MIC Studio meeting for yet another event.Relentless it seems.Commendable but inexorably suffocating.To be brutally honest,I'm getting jaded with the CCA.

Jaded.I need to say it again for emphasis' sake.

I'd much rather focus on my Entrepreneurship module,with the 2nd proposal now underway.Have to scout for suggested locations sometime next week.Feeling ambivalent about that.It means we have to spend time travelling to a few places,using up time.But at least I'll be doing something different.The fact that Roswell Girl would be around would not hurt matters.

Gonna be VERY difficult.She and another gal have final rehearsals for their stage play production.We're under the same CCA of course,just working on different projects.I've got a roadshow to ponder about.Really hope we find time.No matter how stuffed up the CCA seems to get,academics should be the focal point of my stay at the institution.In danger of forgetting that and I need to remind myself.It get harder in the last 2 semesters to maintain a good GPA score and endurance is needed to do that.Hard when life seems to revolve around my CCA instead.

Yeah,I've been bonding with Roswell Girl but only as friends.Maybe other think otherwise but whatever,its fun to hear what they say,even if it is in jest.She confided whatever she's had in me and I'll try to help whenever I can.I just look at her sometimes and I do wonder how it would be if things had turned out differently.Then I'll just shrug it off cos I know they didn't.Things are what they are and then there's MJ.Contemplating after a mate's question,I realise I really do fancy the latter,more so than Roswell Girl.

But for now,I'd like to say that I hope that Roswell Girl overcomes her confusion that she's having at this moment.I mean it,even if it extinguishes my own chances.She's the only gal that I was drawn to in the whole school.I'd like to highlight that my school has an 75% enrolment of girls.I'm surrounded by girls.If I wanted to meet girls for meeting girls sake,that has certainly been achieved if it wanted it to be achieved.But no,I do wanna meet just that one person who can be considered a close friend.If I play it right,that person may be Roswell Girl.

Its not about meeting many girls,its the character of the few that I meet.People think that just cos I'm in a gals majority school,I would be in glee just thinking about the opportunities.Never been that kind of guy.Out of a schoolful of gals,jsut one caught my eye.Just happens that I think my she's rather cute-looking.One cannot deny fact.

A few? Like 2?

Roswell Girl n MJ(though she's not in my school)

One best mate and a gal I fancy.

Maybe.

Who Wrote What

These past few days have been considerably better,with me not going to meetings.Today I managed to do something that I've not done for a long time;come home and sleep.Rest.Skipped a class too.

Soooo..someone seems to have left a comment on my last post....Hmmm...I wonder who it could be...

I think its her.MJ.Days after I tagged on her blog's tagboard,there was suddenly a comment left on my blog.A rare thing.

Was it her? I think so,I really do.She knows where to find my blog,through a mutual friend's blog,where links to our respective blogs are listed.She recently went to that friend's blog to check out something and would have seen my name in the link list.

The comment left behind on this blog was one that was in a polite tone.She knows that I like her but she knows that despite that, I interact with her in a normal,rational manner and have not provoked her in any way so she responds accordingly.

I don't know if she'll be back to see this blog again anytime soon but if she does then I would have to say thanks to her for not biting my head off despite knowing that I've been presistent in liking her.

Going back to what the comment said,I don't wanna be with a girl just do I can be in a relationship.I wanna be with a girl cos I really like her.I don't need to meet many girls to say to people that I know a lot of gals.

What if she wasn't the one who wrote the comment? what if it was just a random comment by someone else? Well,it would be a case of mistaken identity I guess but it wouldn't change anything I said above.

But its just that I really think it was her that left the comment.

At the very least I should be thankful that if she really has read this blog,she has not had a negative reaction towards whatever I wrote.

For The Record

3 weeks of school left.Term exam on the 20th.Must study.

Coldplay's coming to town only next month but all the tix are almost sold out.Damn,didn't even get a chance to try to save up cash to purchase the tix.Bummed out.Maybe in the future when I have enough financial muscle,I can make immediate purchases.

For the first time in a very long time,I played goalie at the soccer court.Didn't screw up so that's a plus.

I wanna say that I can't wait for the hols but really,I know that I'll be busy with my CCA so it would be unlikely that I will get to enjoy the 3 week break in July,just like the previous vacation as well.Its disappointing to know that I'm not gonna get a real break in the future,droops my morale knowing that I will have limited free time in the future.

I'm going to be frank here and say that I'm unsure how I'm gonna make it thru the semester,in terms of how my heavy-load CCA will affect my studies.I know I'm being pessimistic but I'm just afraid that the monotonous state of affairs will just blunt my much needed drive crucial to the achievement of my academic goals.My studies won't drop cos I will do my best to avoid such an incident but I won't be too happy cos there's won't be anything to be happy about.

What could happen to change that? I could get news that my scholarship's been renewed for the 2nd year.That would be uplifting news that I am making progress to push me thru the remaining 2 semesters.

In a perfect world I'd say I want something to happen with MJ but we all know I gotta move past that.

I've got to set things straight here.I may have sent out confusing messages regarding MJ before and I would like to reinterate that while I am less than active when it comes to MJ nowadays,due to the need to focus on school activities,I DO still like her.I'm just not chasing too hard like I used to.How I feel about her hasn't disappeared completely.I just keep them dormant.Why? Cos I gotta respect that she wants me as a friend. To show that respect I have to act normally when I interact with her,just like friends would.

Do not mistake my newfound take on this issue as a sign of disinterest of the subject in question.

Do I still like MJ? Simply put,straight up,no BS......YES.

The World Watches

I have to admit,I am getting a bit lazy to blog,due to infuriating technical problems, lack of time and tiredness.

Its time for the generic World Cup special.

Kickoff was on Friday 11.50pm.Germany v Costa Rica.High scoring opening game.Matters on a fever pitch( or rather,pitch fever?...lol) expected to peak on July 10.

My pick? Brazil.Not for any other reason but simply that I can't see any other team having the defensive capability to stop them.You score 2,hell,they'll score 4.

2nd? I had picked the Germans but they looky shaky at the back.Quarters for them.So I'm going with the Oranje,Holland.A team I'm supporting to go far.They seem to have the right blend.A dark horse for many would be the Italians.

I really fancy the Italians this time round.Personally,I'm hoping Gennaro Ivan Gattuso will have an excellent tournament,same goes for striker Alberto Gilardino.Though I feel that the Azzuri's preferred strikeforce would be that of Luca Toni and Filippo Inzaghi.Del Piero has been nothing short of awe-inspiring this season.If he turns it on,them Kappa boys would be very happy I presume.

My predictions...1st Brazil, 2nd Italy, 3rd Argentina, 4th Holland.A bit too predictable I think,don't be surprised if we see Ivory Coast in 4th at the expense of Argentina or Holland.Besides the Selacao,really digging the Italians.And the Dutch have the ultimate finisher in Ruud van Nistelrooy.If Arjen Robben finds his form he is really dangerous as well.I think Wesley Sneijder and Rafael van der Vaart are having injury woes as well but they have a bunch of players I'm excited about,just like the Italians.

The Beautiful Game has kicked off...when will you tune in to watch?

So We Peoples Now?

Not posted for the past few days due to technical errors.

I just realised how weird things were.To talk to Roswell Girl,I had to tell her about MJ,that I've said before.But to show MJ that we're cool and I'm not freaking over her anymore,I may have to tell her that I'm around Roswell Girl.Of course,I'm into neither,not anymore but I will show that one that I am into the other girl.

I'm not into either cos I realise that to be in that state is a futile one,in case some people are still wondering.

I have an afternnon free tomorrow,may spend it playing soccer at the court if its not infested with people.Haven't been down there in a while to just have a kickaround.

I suddenly have been missing MJ a little bit,even if it is just as a friend.It all started when I had time on my hands once again after the national project for my CCA was finished for the time being.She just signified all the time I had not been spending at the soccer court,one I had some good days.Her act of sending me a testimonial in Friendster shows that she's cool with me.

Too bad I'm no longer chasing her eh...lol

Been nursing a cold.Hope it goes away.

I need a new bag.My Quiksilver's been through wear and tear.Maybe one of those cool and funky ones that i've seen from either Puma or Adidas.

Stupid cold.I'm out,for now.

Oh The Irony

Yes,June 4 has come and gone.To say it was tiring would be an understatement.I came to school 2pm on Saturday and left school at 11pm plus.Was back in school by 7-ish on the big day for the studio recording.Far from ready,we managed to get some badly needed practice during studio rehearsals.But hey,we turned out great during the live recording,with a live studio audience and all.Got 2nd place,beaten by only 1.7 pts.Now we can still go through if we come good on the other 50% which comes from public votes.

All that ended and I reached home at 12am.Woke up for school at 7am,7 hours later.

Its a bloody slog alright...

You'd be right if you'd guess that I would want to say that it was all worth it.But I also want to say that it bloody sucks.I haven't played soccer for more than a while and I haven't met by friends for a much longer time I would guess.

There is another project lined up,in the pipeline but damnit,I don't wanna talk about it now.Especially now.Not after the gruelling hours of the past few days.

I fancy MJ.MJ don't fancy me.I also fancy Roswell Girl.I'd rather fancy MJ and her me,cos it would be much easier but I can't help myself when it comes to Roswell Girl.On the other hand,Roswell Girl fancies someone else.Doesn't help that MJ and I don't interact much but its a lot easier for me when it comes to Roswell Girl.

If there was ever a need to put it in a nutshell,there you go.

Its a rough ride.i have to remind myself that I won't get either.I have to just carry on,no matter how much I think it sucks.

''If its meant to be then it will come back to you'

The words of Roswell Girl when I told her again about my life and MJ.

I felt a sense of irony when I realised that by telling Roswell Girl about MJ,I was telling Roswell Girl I was mad crazy about someone..This is true yes but by doing what I did,I was ruling out any ounce of a chance I had with Roswell Girl.

That's a bit of the daft side,innit?

If I'm Lucky Like Him

Okay so there's this dude in my class that's been bugging me about Roswell Girl.He's not exactly the most popular guy in class and he has to be tolerated at times.I'm not really too bothered by it.What really cheeses me off is that he also does it when Roswell Girl is around.

Now that has potentially dangerous offshoots.She may get irritated that she's being made the subject of constant ribbing.Its sorta indirect.She's never shown any reaction actually but ya never know.Its pretty safe now,just hope it doesn't out of hand.

Another thing is that on Tuesday,Roswell Girl happened to look at my computer screen whilst we were at the computer lab and she managed to catch the title of this blog,which is of course 'ranting and raving'.When I came in quickly to minimise the screen,Roswell Girl said that she now knew the web address of my blog.

Oh bugger.

Wait,I don't think she made it a point to actually remember it so I should be safe.

Right??

But what if she does see it? That would be bad stuff wouldn't it? Well,it would be.

Since yesterday,since all that hoopla that started from that dude in my class,I'm afraid I actually may be getting drawn in and some part of me may believe what he does;that I like Roswell Girl.

I remember saying in the past when times like this may come.When I may get tempted again and I would have to fight to not be infatuated with,in this case,Roswell Girl.Its difficult,as I would expect.

Roswell Girl is in a good place now with a lot of potential.She loves her boy very much and from what she tells me,he's in love with her as well.Their pasts are making them cautious about committing but I believe they will get past it simply because they are in love with each other.There are good points about the guy that I should follow.I'm not copying him but there's just something about him that he has that I have room for improvement in.

I hope that one day I'll get as lucky as him one day and find a dime of a gal like he has.

This is why I hate that I may be infatuated with her now.It was maybe more acceptable when her boy was one that didn't appreciate her.But this one loves her.I shouldn't harbour stupid hopes.If I believe so badly in one of the good feelings left in this world,why should I stop the feeling develop between 2 other people?

I wish MJ had been a lot more responsive.I wouldn't having these troubles now.I would be focusing on her.She would have been the cure against Roswell Girl.Could she still be? I wish...she just wants to be friends remember?

She's thinks she's gonna die single and unmarried.HAH!! Whatta joke.....ANY DUDE THAT HAS THE CHANCE AND DOESN'T CHOOSE TO GET HER IS A FOOL...

As for Roswell Girl and her boy,I hope they do get together.