V Day Today & The V Days After

Applications to polytechnic are nothing but an infuriating and puzzling labyrinth of mumbo-jumbo.

I'm going to apply for Communications & Media Studies under the Direct Admissions Excercise and Law & Management and Business Studies Diploma under the Provisional Posting Excercise via ITE.

Too lazy to explain the different exercises...ugh.

I went with Roswell Girl to Temasek Polytechnic.She was late but it was cool,I hung out with Kevin for a bit.We even saw a darker version of his girl,Salma.Lol.

Ah it's the day of Valentine.I don't believe in the day or its now-commercialised nature but hey,what's wrong with having a day to celebrate love? Isn't that a far better thing than celebrating success or power? Is love not a noble virtue?

Slowly I am grateful that things are looking okay between Roswell Girl and I.At least we got to spend time as friends together.

Maybe it's the nature of today but...

She sounds so happy to be with him.She doesn't have to say it.But I can feel it 'radiate' from her.Silly,I know.

He is one lucky guy.

Oh gosh,I must be bitten by the Valentine bug...

I do wonder what attracted Roswell Girl to him.Wonder what he did to seal the deal.

If you asked me if I would want to go back in timemeet her and fall in love with her all over again,even if my heart would hurt again,I would.

I loved her.She loves him.But I'm okay.

Well,it may seem that I'm rueing about missing out on Roswell Girl.Maybe I do do it.But again,not today.

I almost allowed myself to wallow in my misfortune on the way home just now.But I steeled myself.I liked that I felt stronger.

It doesn't matter that I'm alone today.I'll give it all today to the people worse off than me.People who feel all alone in the world.People who feel that their world has no hope and will never change.If God could help me pass my feelings to whoever they are,it'll be great.

It just reminds me of the charity work that I wish I could get to do when I'm older and I can afford it.A brick house for a mud one.A well for a puddle.These changes I could help make.by building them.It won't change the world but I know it would matter to the person I'm helping.That makes it matter to me.

And to that special someone I've yet to meet...she probably doesn't even exist.But if she does,to you I say: I'll see you soon and God willing,our Valentine's Day I'll make it special.If you don't exist,then it's okay,I'll spend it with kids that the world forgot to love,while building houses and wells.

Sometimes it may be hard to get up after falling down,after aiming as high as Roswell Girl.But I'm going to still be as robust,especially if I meet the right one.Some friends say I aim high,so be it.At least when I do go for her,I know she's gonna be a superfly girl.

Have a Happy Valentine's Day Roswell Girl.Even if you're with him.